Photo Journal

I kinda liked this combination. It reminds me 80s or 90s... something like that

Lecturer again liked me sketch. I am lucky

Today it's hot outside again. And everything became green instantly. I don't know if I am happy or not... being on my own. And all the couples around me having fun. This is not cool.
I know I should cocentrate on my work this time of my life. I wouldn't say that it makes me feel sad or something, I like working a lot. And I have to start doing something decent for myself right now.
P.S. I like dressing interesting. That makes my day...different (?). But all the days are differenet.

Sunday

Lazy days are just starting... doesn't know how to start working. Trying to read book, to exercise. It happens just for few minutes and then I am back to my pc, trying to reach my lover.
Recently I found some inspiration. I even started exercising a bit again. Wanna start jogging. I wish I could go to the gym, but I have no money. Or do I? I should really start going to the gym, cos it's really difficult to exercise at home, even though I've reached some results.

Today I am kinda reading a book about the woman's beauty... and I like it. Am I a dandy?

Can somebody explain why my blog cannot contain anymore pictures? And what I should do now?

Muse

Feeling a bit hangover today after a good Friday Night. Thanks, Elze and your friends.
Today I should work a bit. Started a new painting... Started? not very much... I just cut the cardboard in a right shape and painted a background, I wanted to paint my Dearest Juste and I found one her inspiring picture. I wanna give this for her birthday...
I am so happy that people don't let me to be all alone by myself. Really appreciate it... It's a good day today, warm and sunny. I should rather go outside...

She looks adorable in this pic... Like a muse

Normalmente

It was a buisy day. And I've got some really cool books. And a lot of conversations today. Socially satisfied :D now I need some sleep.

Back from library found those beautiful doors. Why I haven't noticed them before?

Couldn't resist chocolate today

Free day

Yesterday we had some good weather and I spent some time outside, eating ice creams. But today it is just as I thought: rainy, a bit windy and cloudy. Not saying that I am very happy, but today is this not very cool day, when I feel tired, have a free day, not gonna go anywhere and I don't even want it. Who cares? I don't believe that anyone who pretend reading this blog actually read this shit :D Bukowski changed me a little bit.
And my head is itching. I heard that it happens when you take these vitamines, because your hair starts growing faster. Wow, if this is true, I am truyly happy about this itch. It is very weak, I was impressed that I started feeling it and only after I took the morning's pill. I use them only the third day and it started working to me. I don't believe in it. I never had that sort of itch in my life. It tickles :D
Stpid post. Again, sorry.

Today I finished one artwork I started long time ago. It sees very well, because eyes and nose aren't in the same line. But yes, it's me... and yes, my cellphone ruined the whole thing again, and yes, I didn't use any oil colors, and I hate it it and in reallity it looks better..

Today after the sculpture I've decided I should check one second hand shop, I had some time till the Spanish class. And guess what I found? I found high heels I wanted so much and they are my size. I am hating myself, because the heels are 10cm lenght. In the web shop my size is not avilable anymore.... What to do? I could check my account if I have a proper sum of money. But they ar way too high, right?
You wanna see them? What do you think, is it my style? No? I think so too, but I want them so much. And they are almost as expencive as new, this is not cool for me.

Yesterday I helped my little sister to decide if she should dye her hair darker. I feel obliged to say that she looks quite good. I thought of myself if I ever will dye my hair, it would be only the darker color. Blond sucks, really, unless you hate your hair. Not saying that it looks bad, there are so many girls, who look adorable, but it harms hair very much. Have some experience.

Again me

Are you tired of me? Well, you have no choice.

Lecturer said this artwork was one of the best today. I blushed. Sorry, my cellphone ruins everything

I missed my bed today...

Back from University, was very willing to paint. But no...I found a great blog on tumblr. It also says that you have to do what you want :D And Spanish homework is waiting for me.... Tick Tock

My Hair

I am so happy, at last I found vitamines for my hair. Not sure if they will do any (good) difference yet. Well, I hope so, because they are damn expencive and I heard so many good recommendations about them. One of the best you can find in Lithuania, at east I was reading a lot about the vitamins and only those were mentioned as something what helps. I don't even need help, my hair isn't (I don't know how to say it in English) pulling out, they are not very very thick also, but at least they are healthy (I use some natural masks), they are growing quite fast (people say that often to me). Hence, I am mad about my hair, I don't like anyone even touching them. What's wrong with me? People say I pay too much attention to my hair. Maybe I crossed the line :D I even stopped using shampoo. But at least they are natural and I promise, I'll stop being so paranoid about my hair. Today I did it. Just stopped it. I don't like being paranoid about anything... this is quite stupid.

Last stupid pics... haha. I adore those vitamines already. They may not work, but you know, how expencive things can lift your mood up. It costs the whole my week living :D I will live with no money AGAIN.. What a stupid person I became? I don't even save money. Next week I am gonna buy some lingerie and will be living with no money again... that is so stupid

Hello, pumpkins. How're you?
I am feeling dizzy today, maybe because it was warm first time in this God damn spring. So... I made a cool hairstyle (don't know how I managed to do this) And I went for a walk...alone... and I found a muse. Same one... long hair muse...

I made this wothout hair daughnut. how? I don't know, it's still an enigma for me. 

Like I said thousands of times before - my blog sucks. But sometimes I really would like to know all those secret readers who read my blog. I love meeting people.
Feeling quite strange recently. Hm... I need just some inspiration, some inspiration to finish all the stuff I started and to start new one. I am writing like I don't know... nothing.

I can't finish properly anything. That sucks

Today I washed my hair not using any shampoo. I am le cool

Nerd

At last. I officially finished my homework. Even though I've got another pile of homework waiting for me. But tomorrow's homework is officially finished. I worked 5 hours and I hope I won't be the worst one.
I fell in love with lemons. Seariously, what's wrong with me? It's been maybe 5 months I am doing strange things:  exercising almost daily (except not those 2 weeks), buying fruits instead of bread and milk and other proteins and carbohydrates. And on the top of all I am doing my homework. Sitting with a honey mask on my face, with ugly hair and doing my homework, instead of going somewhere. I am a nerd.
Why this spring is so cold? Can someone explain?
I almost changed my mind about the tattoo... or maybe not. ah.

I drew one yesterday. Of courste, the colors are wrong and it was made in a rush, also not in the right spot and too big. But.. I don't know. Maybe I'll leave it till I understand what I really want.

Today Justina the new friend of mine (?) reminded me and also invited to the Rock nights. I hope I'll manage to go there. God, I am so shallow. And the Indian phylosophy was so deep till today. I learned more than I hoped after this essay. Thank You, lecturer :) for forcing us to do our homework

Spring Inspires me

Inspiration floats to me, I cannot hold it still. I wanna do everything today, but sadness makes me feel dizzy.
So, I was in a middle of my homework, I've decided to draw a little bit. Before all that I've been reading about the hair care and tomorrow I am gonna search for some oils. But I am not sure about it, because today, when I visited pharmacy and asked for peper infusion the pharmacist looked at me like I was crazy. But I checked that the oils I've been wanting are able to buy in the drugstores in my city. I must go and check. Maybe I am really crazy, but why in the Russian for an instance, there are all the good natural things for sale. Like that Infusion I was searching for.
What's new? I want a new tattoo. I know it must be on the tigh, but I don't know very well what it should be. I am really not even sure about the tattoo, just wanting and browsing. Maybe I'll draw something. I adore tattoos on tighs.
Also, I wanna draw, I wanna sew, paint and do everything. Because this is me, I have a lot of free time, because my bf is in Munich, I hope that he arrived, because I cannot reach him for a couple of hours.
I like writing here, because I saw how many readers I've got. And wow I was amazed. Thank you, guys. I  appreciate it very much.
Hell, I wanna visit my bf in Munich this summer. But I've got a job offer already... Gosh, again I'll have to choose. Also, if there is gonna be fine with the job he got. I already missed him. Grrrr

I love those Frida Kahlo tattoos. I was thinking about that sort of tattoo, but there are too much of them already

Pandora, I love her delicate tattoos. 

I've never seen a better suspender tattoo before. I would like to have the same without the tattoo machine, but in Lithuania it's almost impossible to get one

in progress. It feels like my hands are made of wood. I haven't been drawing for a long time. I can console myself, that the proportions are right and it looks better in reallity. But you won't believe in me

Bye bye, baby

Bye bye, baby

In progress

Waisting my time, killing sadness

I screwed again

And again

I love you

New blouse from zara

Sad eyes

Loner

I can't stop reading these days. Maybe because it's rainning outside and I am a bit sad, that my boyfriend is leaving tu Munich.
First of all I had to read to collect the whole inofrmation about Chineese philosohpy. I had to do it for school. I had a reading crisis before, haven't find any good books. But it's been two months I am finding so much stuff that inspires me. It's second time I am getting back from library totally happy. I am exploring a bit and finding the whole new books and subjects. Few days ago, when we were at library, I remembered about Bukowski. I took it home and ate the book in few days plus phylosohy, now I am reading the book I gave as a leaving gift to my boyfriend. It's about the art of war. And I like it. I can't understand myself. And today I am gonna start bukowsky's "women", I hope I'll like it. Also had a really big pleasure reading about 50 greatest women in the world, now about 50 most famous couples book is waiting for me.
When I got through that stupid reading crisi, I understood few things, that I adore reading so much, that I have to explore more and try to find more things I like.... And so much more things, for an instance, that books can lift you up and be your best friends.
Also, there is one girl, I wasn't telling you about. It's Justina I met in "rock nights". We started chating a lot lately, and she inspires me to live as I want to. She has adorable long natural hair. I haven't seen such beautiful hair before, I promise.

We will try to meet again in a near future... ah.. how many people are waiting to be seen. But I am still calling myself a loner. I know it's the best way to create something. I try to keep a distance between me and people around. Now my boyfriend will leave, I'll be sad, but also I'll have plenty of time to create and search. But I always like meeting new and old :D people. Also, Megan Fox recently inspired me by saying, that she hasn't got any friends and she never leaves home. And Frida Kahlo, by her beautiful paintings and life story. She was a  loner. I wish I could manage to be one. This year I spent with people all the time. And now I see how boring I became to myself. 

Today I am wearing no make up and being in my boyfriends appartment. I hope I'll be able to do my homework..

Last weekend together

So, this is it. He is leaving on Tuesday. This is our last weekend together...