Happy New Years!!!

Bye bye 2012

2012 review:

1. I changed my beliefs.
2. Had some first times in my life.
3. Discovered I have some deep mental problems from my childhood.
4. Went to few weddings as a photographer and realised I don't want to get married.
5. My boyfriend went to Munich for 3 months.
6. I met my beautiful friend Justina.
7. Participated in the professional photoshoot as a model.
8. Got a penfriend.
9. Lost a penfriend.
10. A terrible accidence happened.
11. I got a tattoo kit. Started tattooing.
12. Started to live with my boyfriend.
13. Went to Milan. Coach Surfing.
14. Horse riding.

And blah blah blah. I hope this year will be thrilling. Because this year was rather strange, but I think it's for the best. Also I heard that for leo's the upcoming year will be the best.

Snowflake

snaig, a photo by vestina2012 on Flickr.

It was snowing a bit recently, but it started to rain and even weather is against good New Year's Eve. I am not looking forward to celebrating it anyway, all the family stays sad and this is not feeling food. But I am really looking forward to eating some dishes my mother in law will cook.
This blog is rather boring recently. Ah

Nautical star

nautical, a photo by vestina2012 on Flickr.

These nautical stars are quite difficult to get, but they always look good.

Snowflake

snaige, a photo by vestina2012 on Flickr.

From all the tattoos I've done this one must be the most difficult one, I was even sweating while doing it. But it's still one of the cutest tattoos I did recently.

Panthera

pantera, a photo by vestina2012 on Flickr.

Another tattoo... Must get up and shine, but cannot get up :D
So, started new painting, but this day is not for drawing indeed. Also started reading a new book abou Chanel and design, I love it. OMG, I should start working at last.

Tattoo of today

DSC_9737, a photo by vestina2012 on Flickr.

My week is quite filled with tattoos, or at least I think so. Or maybe not, some people just cannot decide what they want and I must wait. But I can remember that tomorrow I have one more.
I really should start painting Franco's parents at last. But I cannot stop reading, people just overloaded me with new books. I even got one about the photography, so interesting indeed.

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As you know I cannot apload here lots of photos like I used to. This is the only one, in which I am not smilling with my braces showing.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas, everyone. This Christmas is quite lame, but I've got so many really nice presents. Including more cash, which I like, that means I can save for my big plans. And the "Chanel" book, which is an amazing gift from my sisters. This book includes a lot of her jewelry, clothes and even interior design she did.
But the most interesting thing was that the weather totally changed from 10 or less degrees below the zero, to +4 within a day.

Christmas Eve

This Christmas Eve wasn't so bad as I expected. I spent so much great time at my boyyfiend's home and had some early gifts from people I did not expect to get any and now I feel guilty I did not bu anything fr them. Yeah, I've got Miranda's Kerr book, which I wanted a lot. A really awesome mug with knitted thing on, some natural products for body care and a coupon to buy some cosmetics. I love it, even though I do not adore that shop, but I could use it. Will maybe buy at last some fake eyelashes or an expensive lipstick and other shit.
Ah, only few gifts left for me under the Christmas tree, but I got a lot of cash from my parents and I will have a good start for saving. I will try to post some of photos tomorrow.
Merry Christmas, minks

Stupid Christmas

yesterday I brought two totally different books and they are so different indeed

This Chrismtas will be the worst in my family this year. The photo above represents my pain :D anyways, so my sister got into the fight with my parent's, she wants to leave. Another sister is coming only on Christmas day and my father is working. This sounds like so much fun.
 Yesterday was nice, though. But not in my family. My boyfriiend's family invited me to decorete their Christmas tree and eat some tasty dishes. It was so much fun, also they have some traditions that we don't. I am so unhappy right now. I totally dislike these days. And also I got a doll as a Christmas present from my father in law... a doll. It's been a lot of years I got a doll for Christmas... strange feelings.
So I am sad an confused. My mother in law invited me for the Christmas Eve dinner, but I don't actually know what to do. I already hate this Christmas.

Shark tattoo

Today I had no free minute to rest. But I've earned some money. Not for Christmas though, because all the presents are already bought. And I am happy about this.

Painting

Most of the day I spent painting today, so I don't have a lot to say, not a lot to show either. Just the result.

I am really bad at painting background. That happens all the time...

I am not leaving

It's been a hard day. I have no energy, but I have to finish studying, because today I also have to go to the exam, I am so fucked today. This day was all about waiting, standing in queues and getting cold. I just don't get it why some of the people do not do their job, o do it slow, like a turtle. I am so pissed and it feels like I haven't done the best to prepear for the exam, because my sister was yesterday visiting us with her friend and I did not spend much time on studying. But I bought all the presents I planned, except one little present... I am out of money, spent all until the last cent.
I liked the most digital photo frame from all the gifts. This will go for my parents, that they always could remember us, when we are away. I am sorry, fellas, I am so boring recently. It's only work or sleep and complaining. But I am glad I have some tattoos in the near future, few paintings booked and lots of exams left. Wish me luck.
Maybe I am not writing here so much recently, but I want you to know, that I am not leaving this blog and I appreciate all my readers. Even though, I don't actually know you, guys. Still thanks and have a great day.

First time in my life I want a gift I am giving for my parents'. I could use one, it creates a great atmosphere at home. 

Crown

I am wearing invisible crown. At least I am trying :D

Angelina Jolie

Recently I have this little crush on Angelina Jolie. There was a time, when so many girls and boys loved her and I did not pay attentiont to her at all. Because I do not like being mainstream. Time after time I watched some of movies, where she did perfom. I loved movie "girl interupted". But after I saw movie "Gia", I cannot resist her anymore. I wish she was my girlfriend haha. She seems so attractive to me, and I also love her life story. I seek beauty on a daly basis and she fullfilled my dreams for long time in the future. I think I am in love.

Night Night, racoons

Oh My God

Guess how much I am bored of hearing the same shit over and over again? Today it was too much, indeed. I went home buy bus and there was this radio on, I heard some anecdotes, and I understood that almost all of them humiliate women and question their abillity to study/or be clever. I was really sad, because I do not listen to the radio or watch TV. If you would stop doing this after a short time you would notice, that that sort of media humiliate women (Oh, they clean home, they coock dinner. All the fucking time on tv, when it's advertising stupid cleaning chemicals or food, or stupid kids, only women apparently could do that shit.). All the fucking anecdotes telling that women does not have brain. I even watched a video (it had to be about mind power), but it was a video how to attract women. That would not be so bad, but yeah, they talked about her mouth, and only one thing was said about it and you know what. Also, it was said something about women brain and the coment was - "yeah, they have it". WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS? Women are even more clever than men. I know more educated women than men, also all of them are more clever than men are. And just to prove this, I am gonna post here some qoutes I found today, I found them on purpose. I hope this shit is happening only in my country..... Once again:

Female students are ahead of men in almost every measure of UK university achievement, according to a report from higher education researchers.

A Higher Education Policy Institute report shows that women are more likely to get places in the top universities and go on to get better grades.

Women also outnumber men in high status subjects, such as law and medicine.

Pain

Why everybody is in such a big pain, when I am tattooing them? The same story about this girl. I wanted to fix something, to add some highlights, but she woulnd't let me do that because of the pain. Anyways, she was sweet and I am glad she liked it. It is not my masterpice, but it's better than nothing.
She also said that I look maybe 18 years old... And today I was asked to show my ID and asked if I have 18 years old. Hello? I am 22 years old and I look like that... I don't even know if it's good anymore... haha
I need to start studying Russian for God's sake....

Instagram

I did not know I sleep like this, but recently I sleep a lot. It happens all the time, when it is winter... but I liked my hair, they look healthy at last.

Apparently this is not gonna be one of my final works, I guess so. 

Some bird I drew recently.

It's sad I cannot use photo's url and post some of them like that. But I can put a link here and I want you to see some great pictures of people, who live beyond socieity: lucasfoglia
That gives me hope, that If I will not suceed, I can always leave the socieity and tell people to fuck off hopefully. And then to live just like that, but just without other people and kids... that would be too much. But you never know...

Stuff

DSC_2750, a photo by vestina2012 on Flickr.

So, we have to bring some sketches fo our final painting tomorrow, and I am still not sure what I am gonna do. I have so many thoughts in my mind, I cannot decide. Today I changed my subject and am wanting something like Charmain Olivia does, but my sketches look just like some "fashion" stuff. If I even could name it like that. Hm....

Vestina again

This day is totally frustrating. I wish I could do something to change this condition, but I cannot....

Gia

I've seen a perfect movie for me. That was an amazing evening indeed and I am happy I chose this one. (My nails are long again, so there will be more typing mistakes). My perfect movies contain: good acting, glamour, luxury, pain, alcohol, drugs, interesting plot, could be some gay stuff, or good and passionate love scenes, mental ilness, street, style, vintage. All these things the movie "Gia" had. It was about a model Gia Carangi, she was discovered and became a drug addict. But befoe that she left some amazing photos, for sure. I am so inspired. Gosh, I want my braces of tonight so much.
Angelina Jolie acted amazing, I knew she was an amazing actress, but today she just blew me off. I wish you the best watching this masterpiece, if you're willing. It's so good again watching some movies, after a long break.

Angelina looked stunning in this movie, she is even pretier than an original model.

This is real Gia, Gorgeous. She also was one of first women, who died from AIDS. And also she was a lesbian, bonus to her from me...

Secrets

Today at home I drew and watched few documentary movies, most of them were about the secrets goverment is hiding from us. Since I am interested in this and saw some good documentaries, this one again made me trembling. Of course, all that shit was known to me before, but know it's just obvious. And really strange things happening in my life recently, I am quite scared now, as I am alone at home.
Anyways, I am a big fan of my new salad and I could eat it almost everyday. I wish I had an acces now to buy natural vegetables. All I buy is from supermarkets, that is making me sad, because I know I am eating shit.
Please, wake up. Someone is really messing up with us and our minds.

Christmas is coming to town

It's been a really messed up time and I wish I could stay in a bed or do whatever is much better, than bothering about people, who hurt my family.
Ok, the birthday went very well, maybe too well at first. All the young people gathered and had fun outside, we played with the snow and did funny and amazing stuff. But then the night gone too wild.... I am actually writing here this, because I don't want to do anything right now. This all day and yesterday is too much for me to take. But one sweet thing happened, today we actually decorated our Christmas tree and it was so cute. While we did this, we were listening to this soundratck:

Anyways, I should write my New Year's resolutions. I am so happy I am actually doing this. It will include studying, painting, drawing, tattooing more and start doing yoga... something like that :)

Today's tattoo

Well, I wanted to finish the tattoo quite fast, because the person, who I tattooed was in a big pain and I missed one line. I hope this evening he could get back and I would put it on. I am a moron. Omg.
I am trying not to judge myself, but It's very hard.
So, we were kinda celebrating my father's birthday today, he got a hookah too, so all the family were smoking it, including my grandma. Also, she asked if I do colorful tattoos. Nice :D and my sister is coming home, I hope we will be able to spend some time together and to go and enjoy the snow at last...

Dear Santa, this is my wishlist...

I am so not in the mood doing anything at all. I've never been so lazy all my life, I guess I am getting older. It is snowing so incredibly, life is beautiful, people are nice, but I am still lazy. I don't get one thing - why people keep reading my blog, even though it is so boring. And the amount of readers is growing. Even my English is not worf that. Haha. It sucks.
Tmorrow is my father's birthday, one tattoo and I don't have a camera, oh my God. What have I done? Also, the trees are so frosty, I want to take pictures so bad...
Since today all the day I was lazy and did nothing special, just a little bit of boring travelling and being cold but somehow happy and warm inside, I will make here a Christmas wishlist. That snow made me think of Christmas. So, this is it:

First of all after the Christmas and New Years I am willing to start exercising again. This was my plan for a quite long time, now my budget is just not that big. So, my bf knows a person, who is a Yogi master (?) and he will talk to him and will get all the info I need to know about it and if they can accept me. I am so wanting to do this, you can't imagine. I've been dieing since the end of the summer, when I ended with my exercising. I know, yoga is something different, but I like being flexile and healthy. I may start with this. And this is my wish, maybe even for Christmas.

And one thing my readers know I want to get is this book. I really want to read it, even though I am not expecting it to be deep or amazing. I just love this girl and her glowing personality.

I want a better tattoo machine, also a golden one. I am a golden girl.... hehe

I really would like to get somethign similar to this winter coat. Never found a proper one yet...

Yes yes, please. So comfortable!

Oh, Santa, please let it be mine. Yeah, I know, I need new cellphone. This would be perfection.

Dear, Santa, I need boots.

Also, any luxuries would be nice too.  Or if you don't know what to give me, just give me some cash, I will know how to use it....

Teeth

Today, second time this week I went to the dentist. Yesterday she promissed me that I won't be wearing braces for a long time now and soon they will take them off. I know it may be true, but I also heard that dentist like promissing that sort of things, even though, I also know that the clinic I got my dental braces, is a very good one and my friend had to wear them only for a year and a half. I wear them for year and a half now. Anyway, today I went second time and they cleaned all my teeth and mouth. Well, it was quite painful, but it was worth all the pain indeed, also I did not expected the result will be SO good. Before I got my braces on, I had quite white and strong teeth (not very straight though),but after I got them on, I could not clean them properly and so on. But I can say that I never had such white teeth as I do today, also they are so straight, that means perfection to me, except braces.... Ahr... I love taking care of my teeth. I suggest you to do the same - to go to the dentist and clean your teeth once in a while. You won't regret, because the results are amazing, also it does not cost fortunes and you won't be needed for any teeth whitening. I am so happy now. I thought I will miss the appointment beause I was late after a long and exhausing painting in the university. I am so tired too, cannot eat, won't eat :D because my teeth are perfect now....

No picture of my teeth, I look super ugly when I show my braces. I only managed to get this one. Don't know what to post today ;)

Hot island

I am feeling so cold and desparate for some warthm.The winter just started and I want it to be over by now. Two days in a row I am visiting dentist, sounds pretty painful and boring. Need to concentrate, but I cannot. Oh, someone, bring me to the hot island, with the beach and cocnuts. I would be pleased. 

What I was doing today :D

I think that days will be calmer next week, because those two past weeks were crammed with activities, even though most of them gave me pleasure, but some days you just feel that you need to have a little break. Today I realised I should fucking start studying even just a little bit. I even maybe first time in four years muffed through a language test today. And I did not feel depressed, no no, I met my friend on the shopping centre and spent time buying gifts and things, some groceries too. Not a damn minute thinking about the mistakes I've done. Not a single minute thinking that I should paint some sketches for the Thursday. But I  spend time watching "Friends", "I dream of Jeannie", drawing stuff and making plans for the upcoming tattoos.... Am I nuts? Yes indeed.
But this day was nice. I liked that at last I bought something for myself, even that the things I bought are so small. I also bought an excellent knife for my father, because his birthday will be on this weekend. And I also have a tatttoo the same day too. This post is so boring I almost died from boredom writing it. But I am not watching any movies lately, or don't even search for any inspiration at all.... I don't even know if I am able to apload any of that here. Anyway, me and my coursmate are willing to buy some additional graphic design lectures, if it is possible, of course. And that's how we could apply for the magister degree in the graphic desing. I am not sure about that indeed. But it's worth to try. Eh...
That was nice talking to myself. Have a nice...night. I should go to sleep now. Muhahaha

Salvador Dali

The presentation about Salvador Dali went quite good, not so good as I wanted indeed, I am always damn critical about myself. I wore the moustache, yes I did that :D That was fun. I could get used to it, I even miss wearing them. Maybe I should do that since I am alone at home, but waiting for some guests to come,  could forget wearng it. Haha. 

Do I look like Salvador at all? :D nope

I actually don't know why my hair look so long in this pic. I think they're not. I wear them usually in a braid ant it was long tme ago since I saw myself in the mirror. :D

Winter

There is nothing better than to wake up and see all ths.... Amazing view. I just love waking up and seeing snow, not all the rain and wind.
Also, today I made some latte and ate cake for my breakfast, hehe. Delicious. Watching "Bewitched" too. I love all vintage tv shows. Very cute.
It's just that presentaton today, I wish it was over by now....

Marie Antoinette

Picture of me 42, a photo by vestina2012 on Flickr.

No vivid photos today for you, my dear friends. I am tired of fighting the system...blahr. So, two days in a row I am watchind Disney cartoons, I am so lazy at the moment. Drew only few sketches and then last night I remembered I have a presentation to make: I had no information or even a hint of what I am doing. But now I have a start at least, haha, not what you expected probably. One day left tick tock, and I am watching "Aladin". Perfect.
Does it happen to all the students who study the last year in the university/school? But, I also have a reluctance to do all the things, except drawing, painting and tattooing. I don't even read books anymore or watch movies, I feel tired, not sure of what.
But even though I am not keen on reading nowadays, I did enjoy yesterday collecting some information about Marie Antoinette. I even managed to get a collection of memories, which was written by a hairdresser of hers. The book seems to be very old and it's hard to read it indeed, so I passed it.... again... I must concentrate, dude. As also you can see, that's what I did with the colorful pencils recently. Won't finish it anyway, those ornaments are too difficult to get. Sorry for bad quallity.
I've noticed today that Aladin I was watching yesterday was in Spanish, haha :D