Boots

I was searching for proper combat shoes now for 4 months maybe and I finally ordered one pair of quite nice boots. I am not sure about the quallity though, because there are only too expensive or too cheap to buy and the alternatives are small, so it was hard for me to find good ones. I even  found one pair of super expensive and super nice boots, but my budget could not handle that.

I wanted these boots a lot

But instead I bought these. Well, these were closest to what I was willing to buy at first, so it was a fair deal. But they are too cheap and I am scared about the quallity...

Paint it Black

I've been to the library yesterday and I brought a book, which I wanted to read in a while. Since I enjoyed a lot "White Oleander" I was always looking for some more books written by this author and yesterday I finally found one in the library. I knew that there is a new book "paint it black", I even saw it in the book shop, wanted to buy it, but I considered I should wait, because I don't actually like buying novels, I tend to buy only informative books, like biographies, history or art books. And I found it! So, I spent all the evening reading, at last! I tend to lose interest in reeading from time to time, but Janet Fitch woke me up again. I did not even know at first if I liked the book, but I always enjoy reading about art, music, different worlds and other similar stuff. Also I am willing to read Fitzgerald's "soft night", because I have it, at last!

Yesterday's work. Today I am totally free, I took this day off because I am waiting for my brand new ink to come, it has stuck in the customs (?).

Fake account

I am so not in the mood today, I could actually kill someone. Also, I haven't done anything good today, because yesterday we with some friends and parents had a birthday party for my little sister. It was quite good, except I wasn't in the mood at all to get wasted and start dancing. haha. I only worked on one piece of art today and it's shitty anyway, so this day is nothing good, like it was yesterday.
Do you remember times, when somebody makes a fake account and pretends it's you? I thought people don't do that anymore, but apparently, I've got a message today that one girl pretended to be me by the name April Hagga or something, never heard of it anyway. I knew that some people had the accounts on myspace using my pictures,  but apparently new girl has a myspace account too (still). I thought it is out of fashion. She also used to have a fb account too. So, this world is a strange place to live :D actually that sort of things never bothered me and I don't care. If she is happy using my pictures, then I am happy too.

Thank you, girl, for keeping my very old pictures, which I lost somewhere.

Mad about you

It is so good to post here almost on the daly basis. I can see my attitude changing towards most of my life aspects. But some of things just get back from the past. I remember myself as a kid watching "Friends" on tv, also there was one more tv show, which I enjoyed, it's called "Mad about you". It's about fresh married couple, their life in New York city and something more I can't remember. So, this morning, while eating breakfast I remembered it and watched the first episod. And I liked it: it's funny, quite realistic in some points and cosy. Now I am gonna keep watching it.

Becomming an artist

I thought today I'll go to the library and drag some books home, because it's my favourite activity in the world. Wondering among books and searching for tresures, amazing feeling. But I wasn't in the mood and I had no one to go with, also I really should start painting and exercising (the thing I am slowly dieing without). The thing is, I was willing to start attending yoga after these two weeks, but now I am thinking of gym again. Am I wrong and do I really need all this stretching? I mean, I want some muscles on my legs, summer is comming. And now this week and the upcomming one I am exercising at home. Boring stuff this is.
So, instead of going somewhere or painting, I did another tattoo. I have quite a lot of people in my list and I have to pull myself together and finish all of them in 10 or less days. Also, I downloaded a really nice book about digital painting. But it's hard to read it while you haven't got a drawing tablet and you actually can't learn anything wthout it. So, it's just no use. Alo in the near future I want to buy one more tresure in fr my library and my brain. I should hurry up maybe, because the information which is given in that book would serve for my final paintings... Hm...

It really contains some of great stuff inside. I've seen so many good things in it that I am willing to use this book for being a better artist. I never wanted to be an artist more than I do now...

This tattoo, which I did today, actually has a great and deep meaning behind... I am proud of this guy a lot/

Rest

So, this is a tattoo I did today. I am quite tired of tattoos now and I need to rest a little bit. This day is gonna be perfect. I am dreaming of drawing some sketches and going for a walk after I'll eat dinner. Just like a Sunday to me :) I hope you will have a perfect day just like I am gonna :)

Roses again

I kinda didn't have time today even to eat. I should prepear myself a dinner but I am so lazy. But I am still so happy, when I am tattooing and I can see a little progress in my recent works. Today I did two tattoos for people, who I tattooed some time ago. One friend, who super likes tattoos and I did so many roses on her. Now she wanted some roses too, but we could not finish the tattoo, because her baby was crying all the time, she was moving a lot and I could not achieve anything better in these conditions. So, I decided that all the filling and shadows we will leave for some time in the near future.
I am so boring, I have nothing more to say, except maybe that I am so waiting for my drawing tablet!

As I said before I could not achieve anything better because of the stuff going on around: full apartment of friends, not my home, baby and uncomfortable place for me to sit. I should not do this again, tattooing at somebody's home is quite dumb, but I had no choice. Also, there is a flu around here and I am quite scared that I could get one too.

Cosy winter

Yesterday It was a cosy and nice day, which I adored. I spent almost whole day at home (it is an advantage, when it's like minus 12 degrees outside), I have a free week after the last exam, actually one and a half, which I am gonna spend tattooing, drawing, painting, reading and taking some phtos also spending time with my family. I am quite happy about all this free time from university, even though it's my last year.
So, yesterday we started watching new TV show "Shameless". I quite liked it and all actors seem very nice ineed :) Also, we watched a movie "The other woman". I really enjoyed it, even though it was simple and it ended like more than a half of American movies. But I liked the plot, it was a little bit different.
It is so awesome to enjoy winter at last, I am feeling well and happy. And now I must tidy my room, to prepear for another tattoo and eat some yogurt.
Also I want to brag that my love ordered me a drawing tablet, not a Wacom or Monoprice though, because Wacom seems to be too expensive for me at the moment, having in mind that I don't know if I will really like to use it, never did it before. And we decided that for the price I could afford myself, the best choice was "huion". Even though this brand is from China originaly (I think so), it is even more sensitive than Wacon and you can send it way cheaper to LT. Also there were some really good reviews about this drawing tablet. I hope I will enjoy digital painting and that I will learn how to do that properly.

Some shity quallity pictures. But it's even better than photos from the photoshoot today

Photoshoot

It's been a long time I was planning a photoshoot in the snow or rather maybe on the roof in the cold weather. Yes, I wish I actually could take some photos in the snow (of me or of some other models), but now it is quite impossible. Because half of the time I am working. Anyways, I did a little bit of it today, but I am not very happy about the results: cold weather ruined my hair and make-up, like always. Also, I've got fake eyelashes of which I was dreaming quite long, but they don't fit me. I don't get it. My eyes look smaller and I have natural quite long and thick eyelashes and the fake ones just make me look like a transexual (I don't even know how t write this word). They make no sense at all. And after all I've got just one good picture. My hands got so cold and I almost crashed my camera.

This is the only one I really like. The face looks to pale though, it's because the lightening, not because of the photoshop. When I was blond I used to whiten my face with photoshop :D

I wish I actually had a studio at home where I could take pictures whenever I want :)

Dragon tattoo

Here this is a tattoo I did today. But not a tattoo bothers me right now, I still dream of ordering drawing tablet and this will happen tomorroow I hope so, if everything will be alright. Oh my, I want it so much ;)

Necklace

I wish I could buy this pretty necklace today and as long as I am saving every single cent for my huge plan, I am putting this in my wishlist. Of course I will leave here a link. This is a note to myself :)
Black skull
Good Night, pumkins

Art show

I feel obliged to post here every day due to the number of the readers, even though I am not sure I have something interesting to say besids that I have visited very "interesting" art show, which was "performed" by Swedish artists. I know that I wasted 2 very valuable hours of my life. I would've feel quite dumb if my course mates wouldn't have been feeling the same way as was I. As you know postmodernist art seeks to find a problem and then to convey it on paper/ in sculpture etc. There was a problem, which we heard directly from the artist, but I could not see it in his and students' artworks. They were terrible: no form, no meaning and very offensve btw.
Anyways, after the art show we headed off to one of the girl's apartment and I had some yogurt :D we played alies and that's all. Also my team won. That was a nice night and then I got home my bf told he had a great night with his friends too, so that was kinda nice, that I wasn't alone feeling that way and he had something to talk about too. So, the last exam is finally over, I am one of the best students. Now I am drinking tea and prepearng myself to eat some tangerines (?). They look too cold for me right now indeed.
I am currently thinking of drawing and it makes me feel good.

I was asked to take a photo below so don't judge me.

That was a quite good day. I got good marks and had two pizzas today. One for breakfast, which was in a heart shape, it was made for my sister by her bf. And now I am lookng forward to gathering back together with my course mates and have some more tasty dishes and go to the gallery. See you tomorrow, pumkins

Wanderlust

I am again, like every single winter, waiting for the spring to come. I am full of inspiration and money, which I would looooove to spend on the travel somewhere far away from here. But I have this quite huge plan in my head and I know I won't calm down until I will make it come true. After I will do this, you will notice, or won't some changes in my life or face or whatever. But something will be different. I am also lookng forward to seeing myself after two years with braces. I hope, as my friend said, I will look pretier.

So, tomorrow is this last review, I never felt this unhappy and bad about the review yet in my whole life. I know I did not achieve anything good and it tears me appart. My paintings never looked uglier to me and I haven't got plenty of them. Of course, because I was busy tattooing. And I will continue it after this exhausting week. I wish I had some chocolate today, we are dieing here. So, tomorrow me and my course mates are arranging a little party. Looking forward to this a lot. I really need to take off all this.... dunno.

While painting I managed to watch 3 movies. That one I've been waiting to be released and I finally made it. It was a little bit tacky, but I loved that it wasn't serious enough, which I needed a lot that day.

Drawing Tablet

So, I downloaded free "coral paint 12" for 30 days. I wasn't sure if I want this and how to start. I watched some free tutorials, which became not free in the middle, where all the main info was placed. This day is sad anyways. But I got the idea that I really want start doing this. I never liked a lot anime or fantastic digital art, it is quite repellent to me. But I do enjoy fiigure painting and other maybe a little bit simplier art.
I've been wanting a drawing tablet for a long time now, I thought now would be the best time to buy it, but I also need a new tattoo machine, which costs the same as a tablet.

I chose this one. It costed twice as now and I want it so much! It also has some great reviews.

Frosty

I woke up today and saw that the trees are frosty today. It felt so nice to go for a walk, also to buy a birthday gift for my sister :) I really want to eat and I am waiting for some food now, cannot write more. Sorry.

Budha and Travelling

Yesterday was great indeed. I got one of the best grades from the phylosophy exam and also spent some really good quallity time with my course mates. I really enjoyed it and I am looking forward to next Fridy.
But there is something I am obssesed with recently. It's travelling and Budhism. Budhism is not a religion, but even if people call it religion, it is the best one. I love it, I am willing to buy a Budha's sculpture for my home, when I will have it. I am also always searching for some books about that. I find it totally amazing, it calms me down a lot. I am not religious at all, but I believe in something greater than just casual reallity, I used to practice meditation and I am willing to start it again, also I am waiting for yoga.

These are my best findings. I also enjoy the sharp photography very much, especially when it's something so beautiful as mountains or sculptures and amazing places all over the world. I wish I won't have to save now for my new plan, because I would take all the money from my accaunt and I would definitely go somewhere nice and calm. My one of the biggest dream is to visit Nepal.

John Singer Sargent

Oh my God. I love this artist a lot.

This is beauty

The light is amazingly depicted indeed

amazing point of view

This year is rather interesting. My sister moved in with her boyfriend. They needed a temporal shelter, so we agreed that they can live with us for a while. I actually don't know how long it will take, but it's nice and cosy now in our apartment. Her bf is a coock so we already ate some delicious meals. I am also studying a little bit, tomrrow will be the last exam and I will be damn happy, when this will end up.
Ah, I got a message today, which cheered me up so much. One guy said, that his uncle is participating in tattoo shows and so on, and he said that that uncle liked my tattoo I've done on this guy and that I have a good hand. I am so happy and I need new ink. the best one.

I made my bf old today :D

Today's work

Today I've been working again a little bit. It took me two and a half hours to do this, I kinda feel it is not finished, but we've decided I'll work on the phoenix's tail, when he will come for his second tattoo. I saw that he is in a big pain and I didn't want him to suffer more. Anyways, he liked it so much, that he gave me even more money I asked.
I have to prepear myself for a big exam this Saturday, but I am a bit lazy... and confused. The information is mixing and it's hard for me to concentrate.

Lion Necklace

Man, I want this necklace for so long. Maybe it's time to buy it at last... Not sure if I can spend money on that sort of luxury :D

Terrible day

This day was a terrible one. But now I am safe at home. A total disaster, like a total one :D going from one place to place, copying tones of copies and felt the lack of coins, nothing was working and so on. Blah blah blah. Then got to the uni and remembered that tomorrow the exam is waiting for me, wow, the last day. It's just a review of our drawings, but still, I had no time to prepeare myself, not even talking about drawing something additional. Missing all the busses, elevators....
But I have some news, in two months my braces won't be bothering me anymore. The same month my love's nose will be operated too. What a luck. But my pain is far away from me now. Yes, I did suffer some pain because of the braces, especially because of the wisdom teeth. Dentists had to take them all out and I swear I never felt anything as painful as that. The pain, which was caused by braces, wasn't as half bad, as it was when they took of my wisdom teeth. And now this is almost over. I am scared too, I have to confess. Being without dental braces again, smilling even more and looking good in photos. Am I ready for this? :D
Anyways, the day would not be so bad, if I could feel a little bit safer about the future. I know I should not think of this at all, but I do and it bothers me a lot today.

When he is sleepy he looks damn sexy indeed. I wish he could join me this evening and drink some tea with me. eh

Untitled

This year started so good and now I am a sad ass. I feel overwhelmed and tired. This fatigue is conquering me and I want to sleep all day long. I also heard that this year will be the warmest year within 100 years (?). Not sure if this information is correct.
So, anyway, you may not know and you don't need to, that in a year I always get at least one request to be in some kind of photoshoot or to participate in a model contest (even though I am not that sort of girl, who could walk on the catwalk). So, this year I've got few request. One of them I did reject because then I used to go to the other school. And this month I've got two of them. But today I also realised how frustrating and ugly is modelling for any kind of job. There was this guy, who asked me to participate in his own contest, I had to answer some questions and so on, because he saw my pictures and he liked it and blah blah blah. I also saw his portfolio and that was a clear game. So, I felt like a shit after this dumb quiz and deleted the person from my contacts. Maybe I am overreacting to this, but it was awful. Girls there are the dolls, who sell their bodies an they are also the same to these photofraphers or who the hell was that person. He hiself said that every single model is the same and you have to fight and not be gentle anymore. Wow, I wrote a whole bible of all this. Anyways, I instantly deleted this person from my contacts and now I am in a huge crisis. I was there even beore all this happened. I feel tired of tattooing a little bit and all the request. But sure, how would I live without all this? It is the constant money and I can live with that as long as I won't get tired. I wish I could work in the tattoo shop. But not now I guess.
Yesterday we, four people, got drunk again. I did not know that this wine was soooo strong. I tasted a little glass o it and I ended up feeding homless dog in our staircase. When I woke up and went to see the dog I instantly smelled the wrong smell and I saw that all staircase is full os poops he did.

Today's work:

Lonely Fridy

A total madness today. Done two tattoos and now I am free, I am actually free and I don't want anything to do, just browsing through some Gothic/model/darkness blogs. Maybe I did not draw anything or did not do any homework either, but I actually managed to find a singer, whose voice and style I enjoy a lot and now I am listening to all his songs. But I especially liked this one:

It's been a while I spent a lonely Fridy like this. I also thought of puring some wine for myself, but I instantly thought of my health and so on. But when I actually think about  it - one glass of wine a day is healthy indeed. Will think about this opportunity.
This day is a day, when you need to think everything through.

Tattoo on scars

I never thought that tattooing on scars would be so difficult, but it is. The lines don't look straight, even if you do them straight, also shaddows are fucked and so on. The story could be endless.
I am not sure if I have another tattoo today, or not. Well, whatever. I need to rest from tattoos and start working for my own sake.

That could've be an awesome tattoo. Also in reallity it looks way better. 

Two bothers

Today I've been tattooing two brothers. That was nice and I've noticed that my lines are becoming quite straight, I am so happy about that.
Recently I have too much of tattoos waiting for me, I even don't remember people and their tattoos, or dates. I need a secretary. And I am totally busy with them, I will try to take a day of on Sunday and go back to Klaipeda and start studying at last. Because I did not have any time for studying and I have a Phylosophy exam, which will be very very difficult to learn. Wish my luck, guys :)
P.S. I don't get why I can apload here photos again? What changed? But I am totally happy about that.