Hollywood movie time

Hi, everybody. It's been a while I wrote here, I had a mini crisis and I think I am still having it. I refuse to go out as long as it is actually possible, I watch lame Hollywood movies with my love (he has few free days) and I am so dissapointed of life. I actually managed to bring my ars out and I bought temporar hair dye, I did dye my hair, but I don't think it is worth it. Well, it will wash off, so.... I will think of this.
Since I spent the half of week at home, I watched a tone of lame movies. I could not even start painting today. None of them are worth watching actually, no deep meaning, no good plot or even actors. I did found one though, it's "5 year engagment". So, if you are depressed like I am, I sure recommend you it. Have fun.

I love the actress, she was on the movie "My summer of love", I used to adore it.

Hair problems

Yesterday I had some kind of crisis in the evening. I refused doing anything I just sat on the computer and complained about my life. I know you shouldn't be reading this, it makes people uncomfortable somehow. I was willing to dye my hair instantly, make it darker. Maybe the crisis started when I actually tried to make them darker using natural henna dye whcih washes off after one or two times, and my hair did not look any different at all, they just had the worst smell and became thiner. I thought I will see how it looks on me, because I was so tired of my natural hair color, in all the photos it looks grey. Too simple, too lame. I even refused to go out for the first time in a long time now, my ex course mates wanted to meet, but I was too tired in a really really bad mood and I could not imagine myself again trying to come home late in the night, when all the busses are already not available and I always have to ask for my bf to take me home. Also, I am tired of drinking.
This morning I also woke up with the worst mood, but shopping (first time in my life) lifted me up. Now I am feeling way better, also I had to spend all the coupons I got for my Birthday and it was a sale, so I had to go. I also maybe miss tattooing (soon), I need to test my new tattoo machine. But the question about my hair is still bothering me, if you have anything to say - spill it out.

First of all I planned to buy this thin coat, for the first time in my life. It was two times cheaper than an original price, also, I look like a real woman wearing it, at least I feel like it.

I did not buy this skirt, but I wanted to :D I mean, I look like a Fran from Nanny. But I wanted to use it with huge boots, a little bit gothic and stuff. 

Instead I bought this, because I had some money on the coupon left. This looks amazing.

Some lost photos from my Birthday...

You see, my hair looks grey

Dalai Lama, I am coming...

There was only one spiritual leader I admired all my life and of course it was Dalai Lama. I even wrote on my bucket list, that I have to meet him or at least see him alive in my life. So I was surfing on the internet as usual and I saw that he is coming in Lithuania this autumn. Do you imagine how excited I was? And without almost any hesitations me and my love bought two tickets to see him :) So, this autumn I will meet one of my inspiring people. I hope nothing will cross our way and there will be no setbacks whatsoever, because I am dieing to see him alive and to feel his awesome energy....

My big day

I did not have any time to post anywhere yet. I am urging to post here though, because I love my blog as it is and I also love my new keyboard, which has all the buttoms :))) yeeey.
So, I am 23 years old now officially. I got used to the number yet and I am feeling old :D I celebrated my birthday quite interesting but yet on the other hand quite calm. One part was at home, where were some candles and a cake, the other part was when we decided to go to Klaipeda to the city event. We danced, I bought a necklace, the woman who sold it told us that she made it herself, my sister bought something too. I also got the best gift from my love, he actually gave me the tattoo machine I was craving for, what a liar. He convinced me I won't get it and I was devastated, because I knew I did not have money for this, I'd rather not get any luxuries at the moment, just some necessary things. And I got it, I almost cried when I saw it's golden frame and it is heavy like it has to be. The birthday was nice, I ended up with only one person drinking wine at night and that's how it ended.
Yesterday I decided to leave my hometown, because I had too much of work there and too less of fun. Me and my new friend decided to meet at the event in the night and we spent some amazing time there. Just took some drinks and sat next to the sea. This was amazing, I also adore nightlife and I cannot get enough of it. I am glad I can work whenever I want at the moment (until my studies start) and I can enjoy nightlife, sleep long in the mornings. And now I am meeting with my sister, I have to spend my gift coupons I got for my big day :)

My sister gave me a make-up. She is almost a professional, when we are talking about this.

he is so adorable sometimes

This is the necklace I found... I adore it

This is my little sister's present

<3

I just love this pic haha

Big tribal tattoo

Sometimes I wish I could just be alone for one day. Sometimes it's just too much. This is actually happening at the moment: people calling on my cellphone, writing stupid messages, some people requiering special attention and they need and need and need. It's like I would be a machine, which won't need any stupid free time. Yesterday, for an instance, I was tattooing all day long. At the same time, people kept calling me on my cellphone with some stupid questions on the air. Alright, Vestina, calm down.... And now my sister, it's like I should tear myself apart in two pieces. Whatever... it's too damn difficult.

It's like a tradition - tattoo of today

6 tattoos a day

I did it, I actually got through this day. And I am so happy, sitting here with a mug of hot chocolate. In this condition I desperately need something hot and sweet to drink.
The day gone by smoothly, with no setbacks whatsoever. But I am so tired....

Today I did 6 tattoos. And this is one I liked the most. I also tattooed two mommies today and both wanted tattoos on their legs. Tattooing this lady made me realise how much I don't want children. I had to put up with hers and her friends children. They create an incredible noise, also the mommies keep only talking about their children and common stuff. I was bored listening to them. 

Sorry about the quallity, a photo was taken with a cellphone.

This is my record - 6 tattoos a day... haha

Me Me Me

I wish I could draw more actually. I was on this programme "a sketch a day", but I could not adapt to the pace actually. I am working almost non stop with tattoos recently and tomorrow I think I won't have a minute to rest. But there is a problem with my tattoo machine, it all just broke today. Few pieces fell apart, I am glad my father was at home, so we could fix it somehow. But I am so scared that it won't last too long, I am crossing my fingers that it would work this whole week. The problem was that my boyfriend wanted to order a gold tattoo machine, which costs fortune (according to my budget now), but I guessed of which gift he was thinking and he changed his mind. I will never guess again. How could I save this amount of money now? Hm... I don't want anymore half price damasco steal stupid tattoo machines, which don't work properly. Does someone know any good tattoo machines I could order online? Really good, but not too cheap and not too expensive either.
I think you are absolutely beyond my tattoo photos, so I have a little bit something of myself today. (I know, I could've probably been drawing or reading the amount of time I spent taking pictures, editing them and doing my mak-up. But sometimes I just want to feel like a lady.)

I love this the most. It's my mother's ex dress, but now I am thinking of making it as a some kind of blouse.

I wish I was free

One thing is what you did not know about me (there are more of course) is that I am very into global issues. I am like a sponge, I absorb anything bad and I am very into conspiracy teories and after all shit I read I am left with ruined belief system. I don't believe in education, though I am getting master's degree (what a fucked up person am I?). I am against drugs (even though from time to time I use artificial vitamines). I am against pollution, but I still keep buying clothes and more unnecessary things. Maybe I am too harsh on myself - I keep thinking. Because I do care, I do read more and I try to change myself. Yesterday I read so many negative things that I woke up in a really bad position: feeling like a human being who is less than a small protone and is just an unnecessary partical after all. Do you ever feel the same?
Yesterday I had so many flashes in my mind. If it is really happening all over the worl, why should I keep thinking about all these negative things if we all are gonna die after all, doesn't matter if it will be a natural way or not. So that's why I decided I want to try to jump with a parachute. With my love. Nothing is clear yet (I am not the kind of person who likes to say something before she/he is even sure it will happen), but sometimes I just want to share something. I am tired of keeping it all inside. All my plans, all the things that happen, all my dreams. Here I can share, nobody cares anyway...

Yesterdays tattoo. 

100 tattoo.

What I've been doing lately? Not much and too much at the same time. I consider real time, when only I am learning some new things, spending time with amazing people or tattooing and doing some other art. But anyway I spent some amazing time knowing new people, even just for a little bit. depressing about my birthday (I am almost 23 years old and I haven't done anything significant), also I brought a bunch of books, again about femminism, living without medicine and some phylosophy.
But at the same time I love life a lot and I feel a need to be happy that I am gonna be 23 years old next week. Well, I hope that gifts are worth the stupid day anyway :D I also have lots of tattoos coming. I only hate that so many people write to me at the same time, even though I cannot tattoo all of them this week and then they start thinking that I don't want to tattoo them... Sucks. But the previous day I had my 100 tattoo at last. And apparently we are half reletives with the guy haha...

In reallity it looks really great. I did both of them. Also I can feel that my lines are way straighter than they used to be. I am lookig foroward to the future. But today I did another tattoo and maybe one more I do have left this day, so I did cross the 100 number ;)

Dragons are always in fashion

It has been some crazy time. It flies so fast and I hardly have any time even to eat. I've lost some weight but I am still satisfied with my life, considering that it's summer, which is not the best this year in Lithuania.
I might be having some more time without the internet, feeling really sad about it. Also haven't planned anything yet for my big day and it makes me sad very much. Because now everybody will have other plans or maybe even to work. After all, life is amazing. I think I am gonna tattoo a lot the upcoming days and maybe grab some new books to read. Missed Dostojewski a lot... and maybe some other classic stories will be available for me at the moment. Even though I am willing to start painting again, but we will se about that. Have also an amazing movie "Surviving Picasso". I think I will enjoy it, if you are into art as much as I am, you should watch it ;)

The tattoo of today

Birthday Wishlist

It's hard for me to write recently, because my whole activities are circulated around tattoos, photoshoping booked photos and spending my free time mostly with friends, not even with my family anymore. Life is running in a really fast pace and I am getting little shivers of even thinking about it. My 23 th birthday is the next week and I am still feeling like a child. But these years made me realise so many things and made me even love my life more than ever. I love every single day of it and I am feeling dizzy of all the good things surounding me right now. I am more like buddhist trying to be happy with what I've got, with who I am now and what amount of money do I have. Even though sometimes it is difficult to feel joy out of nothing, but this is possible. I just need some more time and I will master this.
But even if I don't care so much about the matereial things anymore, as I do every single year, I want to create a Birthday wishlist. Maybe even not for me B-day, maybe for my life at this very moment.

It's all grey and black almost:

I still want a military jacket, but still have no idea where to find a perfect one or a little bit cheaper. They are damn expensive...

These yearrings are amazing

I need good high heels shoes

For the winter. My dream coat.

Mantilla comb. I want it so much <3

And a good trip

As yo can see none of these dreams cannot come true at the moment, but I still wish and I like to believe that one day...

Early gifts

Today my new friend came over and I redone her old tattoo. I also got an early B-day present, which I adore. I almost ran out of coconut oil and she brought me new one and more of it. I felt so happy like a child. Also it occured to me that I never told her I actually use it, so that was more pleasant suprise for me actually. I also cannot decide whether I should celebrate my B-day or not, since I have to save a lot... And I have no ideas except expencive festival, which will be on the same weekend as my birthday.Or maybe it will be another ordinary day....

random picture of me as always haha

Weekend news

Hello, I am so back. I missed internet so much. Today I am gonna spend all day long on the computer, omg...
The weekend was nice, I did not have any free time though, even for my a sketch a day programme. I mean I did it all the days except yesterday, I really had no time. But instead I did a bunch of tattoos, I was invited to be a photographer in the christening and wedding and I also spent few great moments with my sister. And I also obtaned few new friends. But the weekend in a sum wasn't so adorable at all. At the moment I have to deal with some problems within my biological family, that is why I am happy being in Klaipeda again. And I promise, as soon as it's possible, I am gonna fix the internet problem back there. But after all - Life is beautiful as it is.

I mostly loved the child actually, even though I am not keen on children. But this one seemed to like me too after all...

Rainy night

Hello, dear readers. I hope I have some, or even if not, writing this blog feels amazing. The most amazing thing is scrolling through old entries and remembering all the feelings while I was writing it. Some of them are sad, some not so much.
This night feels precious to me. I feel like living for real, because when you have ups and downs, you can fully understand what life is about and how can you create yourself.

This rainy night is amazing...

And the music is mystic.

Besides I found one amazing fashion blogger, you can read her blog here

Home sweet home

I am trying to get back on track with this blog. I know my updates weren't really amusing or anything, also I promissed myself once not to abandon this place again. I am also back on the programme "a sketch a day", I did it last summer and I felt great, also I drew almost daly, if I could not draw, I would draw two sketches the other day. We will see, with this pace in life now-a-days how will I manage to keep up with this.
Today I signed the agreement and I am getting master's degree. I've been dreaming about this almost always and I am lucky I will get one, because here in Lithuania, education is very important and master's degree is well accepted, if you only have bachelor degree, be prepeared. But I am so scared that I won't be able to be a good student, because all the subjects are so difficult....
Today we also visited Paul's family, he hasn't been at home for a whole summer now. I wouldn't say that I spent the time amazingly well, but it was cosy and I could draw one sketch of today :) maybe I didn't enjoy today so much, because I felt tired and very hungry. Haven't got a lot of time to eat recently and it started driving me crazy.

We visited Paul's grandparents, they are amazing little people and they have this amazing garden full with berries, which we ate and ate.... 

I tried to take a picture in the sun. We both look awkward...

Before the Midnight

Tonight we rewatched one of my favourite movies "Before the sunset", I know there is another part too, but I don't want to get mistaken about the title. I really liked it since I was young and now there is a new movie "before the midnight" out, which won't be so beautiful, sophisticated and romantic, but we are still going to the movies and we will be probably watching it after all :)

Master's degree???

Ok, since I don't really know if I will be able to post here tomorrow, I'll tell you one thing I am now kinda doing. I applied for a master's degree and I am in :) I might be studying for two more years the business managment. I've chosen this subject, because it is very difficult to get anywhere with the fine art bachelor degree (and I did get intgo the desirable subject) and because I want to create my own business, my boyfriend still has to stay in Klaipeda for 2 more years because of his studies and also I'll be able to work as a head manager, or even a boss in any kind of business company. But it will be hard, because the studies contain science projects, investments and statistics. I never studied anything like that, although I am happy I won't be only an artist with the bachelor degree. I am getting a master's degree too, if everything will go right tomorrow. I have to sign an agreement.... Wish me luck :(

I found my dream sweater in zara on sale. I am a lucky lady. the sweater itself looks neat, feminine, but it is wide and has pockets.

And I also bought low heel shoes. They look kinda nice, I wanted to be smaller than my bf, but it still hurts while walking. It's a huge pity...