Dog wanted

I need your help. I cannot post this on Fb, because there is a person, for whome I have to find this gift. And maybe some of you live in Klaipeda area, I mean, I know that I have some readers from Lithuania and maybe some of them are from Klaipeda. So, I want to know where could I get this dog puppy in mentioned area. I know the name in Lithuanian, but in English. I searched for translation, but I could not find it. Maybe something like samoyed (?) :D I need to find this pupppy within a mounth and if somebody knows anyone, who sells them in Klaipeda, please, contact me. Anyhow, we are looking forward to buying it :)

How cute is it?

Fussy and Sick

So basically I've been very sick those few past days and I could not even get up from bed. It feels frustraiting considering that these are the last days of summer also of my freedom. I wish where were more time just for me, the tattoos and books, but oh well, I should say bye to most of these things for a whole year. Or maybe even two years.
I am a person who is ill very rarely, so I always thought how many things you can actually do while you're sick, but the truth is you can't and you don't want to. So these last days weren't very productive, I tried to walk or do stuff, but it was unbearable, also I felt sick mentally to. So, I think I wasted a half of the week already, not sure how more time I will waste in the future. Also, about the studies, the main reason why I don't feel good about them is because I feel like I am an artist (At last) and I don't belong anywhere else, I know artists have to have a knowledge about money and business, also if you want to be a rich one, like I do, but all the science projects, working with spss and shit is driving me crazy. I don't even want to... There there, Vestina, you have 3 more days :D what an amazing consolation.
Today I actually finished one drawing I procrastinated to finish and I also am continueing one artwork with the paint, we will se about that. This is the outcome:
I want you to know that in reallity it looks way way more better. This was taken with a cellphone. so...

Spending time at home

This day was wow, but I cannot talk about it. It's just my headache is going to kill me afterwards.
Yesterday though I watched a really cute movie, I was all alone a whole day and I wasn't feeling like doing anything, because I was all fussy and nervious about today, but it turned out to be great. It was dark, I settled on our bed with an ugly pasta I made only for myself (When I make meals only for myself, they always turn out to be awful) and watched some movies. But I loved the most "Paris-Manhattan". I totaly love New York and Paris, so I instantly hooked with the title. But the Manhattan part was only talking with Woody Allen in a bedroom in France, so not much about USA this time and almost a whole movie was in French. Hoewever I liked it, but I wouldn't give it 10 points from 10, but after a whole day of quite crappy movies, this one made my evening cosy. My English seems to be getting worst, I should practice more.

There was one actress in a movie I watched yesterday, who is already dead. She died very young and realising this during the movie made me think of important things in life.. Like the movie was made in 2001 and she died 2009, that means at the time she had only 8 years to live, but she did not know that. We could relate to this so simply, like we are not sure if we are gonna be alive tomorrow. That is why you must do what you want to do in your life.
This was the movie if you are willing to know:

It wasn't anything deep or with a meaning, just very cosy New York atmosphere. I like New York in early 90s or 2000 or so.
P.S. I am so sorry for my poor quallity movies recently and no real posts with no real life in them. But now this is the situation.

Two movies in a row

I am not actually sure what I am doing in my life recently. Is it wasting time or my destiny? But I am up for everything at the moment, I realise anything from good to bad can happen. It's been a year my parents are getting through a rough patch, where are times when I actually think they will get a divorce, but they are holding on. This makes me think of the moments of joy and living like now everyday. I am not a person who poors personal things out and for sure not a one, who wants any attention because of them. But this makes me feel sad most of the time, even though I am not showing it to anyone, but on the other hand I am starting to become an ignorant asshole. I never thought I will become one actually, so if there are problems, which repeat time after time, it makes me feel sick and I want to punch the person, who lets those problems ruin hers/his life in the face. So, this was my introduction, I wanted to talk about two movies we've seen today indeed. They were simply amazing. You did not have to figure it out, you could see a really precious sights of France (or French?) landscapes and urban places. I love movies which take places in France, Italy or Spain. So we watched:

Julie and Julia. This one makes you wanna move on with your life and do whatever you want, what makes you happy.

And "French Kiss". I loved both of them. Really enjoyed the athmosphere of this one,

And today's tattoo

Out in future cold

Hello lovelies. I've been busy as always, so not much to show or to say. Though I have been thinking about my future studies and I felt so horrible. I am not sure if I did a right choice, but I thought the same about my art studies too. On the other hand I will only have two years to study. But I don't want to abandon my art and tattoos, it's my passion. It is gonna be tough. Wish me luck on this...
Today was fine, like most of my time. But these few days I've been out in my hometown and I can already feel Autumn coming. It's sad because I haven't felt summer yet much and it is already over. Most of the time I am feeling cold like I remember I used to. I think I am writing tonight here so incoherently. I feel so numb right now....

Today we have been out and I felt autumn so near. But It felt nice on the other hand... very cosy indeed

My drawing. Totally random

Tattoos of today

It's been a while I've been here. My nails are so long, I cannot write properly. So I won't haha.
Life is so short, going by so quickly. I haven't got much to say, but I will post here my two tattoos I did today. I hope you guys are having good time...

Oddities and an odd day

So, this day was exhausting. Oh man. I had one free day yesterday, but today I had so many things to be done, as you knwo my master's degree studies are coming, so I want to be sure I did everything before I start studying again, because this time it's not gonna be easy. So I actually went to the hospital all by myself and it was I guess the first time I did since I was a teenager. I had my blood tested and it was tragic, I had to wait in the queue and go few times, because one time they take your blood, then you have to pay for it and then you have to take back the results after waiting. This day in general was unproductive, but I did it and all by myself. I am a very healthy person, but I have to check my blood from time to time, because I used to have anemia. But I hate hospitals and doctors in general, I never go there, I just hate, it creeps me out. What a long post about nothing.
Yesterday though I found one TV show, which is "The oddities, San Francisco". I liked the things they were finding, but I didn't like that this tv show is like repeating itself, it feels awkward. I mean all the episods seem the same, only people are different with some different attitudes, but after a while they seem the same too. I love all kinds of freaks, but that felt too much even for me. It feels nice to actually see someone "ordinary" after a while. But anyway I enjoyed finding out about some antique stuff (even though I hate antique medical equipments) and other stuff like real preserved fingers or skulls.

Charmain Olivia also participated in this show

My New friend

As you know I have been in my home town for few days. It felt not so bad as it did few times before. Among the tattooing I found some free time to have a long walk and I felt so amazing. There are few places in this town, which in all seassons look beautiful. But I had one thing in mind, when I was walking - why I don't have an ipod or a mp3/4 player??? I had two in my life and the previous one I've lost when I was travelling, I thought I could live without one, but I am a huge music lover and sometimes I like spending time alone, only listening music, or walking alone with headphones and any player of any kind. So, I earned money and I decided to get one. But I was thinking about ipod, my boyfriend talked me out of it, he is working in an electronics shop so he knows shit. We decided to go for a sony walkman. I wasn't in at first though, but I found one with a gold frame (I dislaked white or black). So he grabed it until it was for sale, because there aren't plenty of them. And I got it at last. I almost cried when I heard how good music can be. Like in your headphones. Feels amazing for such a music lover as I am, even my walkman is titled for music lovers. That's me. So, the price is not too big but not too small either...
Last night we also spent some amazing time with my sister and her friend, eating pizzas in the car, watching ships leave. The nights are getting longer. Huh.... Today my paragraphs don't have the endings.

This is one of those places I love in my home town.

I even set my own wallpaper haha. 

Night with sherbet, pizza, cars and good people

Tattoo nation

One evening I had some free time and I accidently found a documentary movie "Tattoo nation". I really enjoyed it and it actually made me a little bit sad somehow, seeing all those people trying to be the best and I am in my worst talking about tattooing. But anyway, the movie was enjoyable and quite informative to. I got to the point where I understood why where are so many old bad quallity tattoos, just because there weren't proper needels back then and they were invented not long time ago. Also I was filled with respect, when I saw that tattooing had to go a long time until it was properly estimated. Even if it isn't now yet very much from all of people. Some still think it's a case of being a gangsta or a convict, but it is not, it is a self expression and art. I love it. Also, so many people don't actually get how difficult is to tattoo. It's a pity actually and they think this is so easy, especially if they draw.

I want a cup of tea...

Hey lovelies, how are you? Nobody asked me, but I am fine and busy at the same time. I feel so tired and exhausted at this moment, therefore I think I am gonna skip the long walk around the nocturnal city. Even if I really wanted this, I think I'll stay and read a book.
Today was fine, I did two tattoos. One I did on scars, I really like the girl and we actually clicked, looking forward to another tattoo she chose. And the other one was more like cute.
Recently I've been reading a lot, especially about Da Vinci. And blah blah blah. Feel so fucking tired actually... need some tea. I don't get why I feel so tired after all. Maybe because yesterday and today I was tattooing non stop and now I will have some deserved time for reading...

Second Hand shops rule!!

I almost never buy clothes in any second hand shops :) it's been a while I did it I mean. And I had some bad thoughts about them, because someone already wore it and they are all the same, in awful condition too. But I've changed my mind, when I actually got into second hand market, which was in Milan. It is held only once a month and we were lucky to be there at the time, I bought there my lovely bracelet made in 1930s year and I saw so many Chanel vintage things and clothes, I wanted to put my hands on them, but it was too expencive. Yes, I love vintage and stuff, but today getting back from library I decided I should try to find something cool in local second hand shops and I actually did. I never thought I will actually.

I found this zara sweater for 2 euros. It is so comfy and cute

And this topshop blouse. I love it, but you must wear not a push-up bra with it.

P.S. I wish there were some second hand vintage shops where I live.... :(

My photography sucks

I spent a lot of time reading about femminism these few days. But I am not even in a middle. There is so much hate towards women, I am not saying that now-a-days it's all the same, but why we have to forget and also why we have to be silent now too? I mean, there are so many bad things still happening with women in socieity. But enough about bad things.
I think I have few photos for you. My photography is almost dead recently, everything I try to do, to experiment with looks like an empty effort. I don't actually get why, but I may be have a clue. I think that I have wrong friends surrounding me. I keep thinking about this, because not much of the people get what I do and what I want to say through my art or whatever. But I found (at last) few friends, who are actually into very similar things as am I. I hope I'll be able to keep these relationships, because one of the newest friends have a child, the 3 other ones (one old, two new friends) live in Kaunas and it is so difficult to arrange something. But I hope I will cope with it and we had some art projects with few of them in mind. But they never actually happen.

2 days in New York

What is wrong with me? I haven't been so pesimistic in a long time. This day for an example sucked, half of the day I was combating with a huge headache, I even took medicine for that and It did not work, so I took more of it and then it started doing something. I also tried to draw, it went ok at first, but then I tried to draw a sketch of Frida, it went so wrong. I hate everything now, especially that happens, when something's wrong with my drawing. The whole day was rainy and windy and we could not go out with my friends. One friend asked me to go shopping with her, the other one wanted to grab a cup of coffee, but nothing happened. This day is the worst. Will I ever be able to draw again?
Ok, this blog turned into complaining departament, so I must write about something else. Today I got (at last) a movie "2 days in New York". I watched "2 days in Paris" with Julie Delpy (I like this actress) and I wanted to watch the movie about New York too with the same actresst. It's a pity, I don't speak French and there weren't any subtitles of this language like anywhere, so It was sad, because a half of the movie was in French. But me and my love enjoyed it and he even liked it more than I did. If you're willing, you can always watch it. I think most of you will like it if you're such freaks like us hahaha. I liked their movie with Paris more though.
I am going now to try to draw more this evening... until I will loose it and will start throwing things into someone.

Stupid questions. I thought I will try them....

• 01: tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
• The attitude and maybe some features of appearance.
• 02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you?
• My teeth. Since I took of my braces, they feel very sensitive and hurt from time to time.
• 03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night?
• I actually thought about my acomplishments in life and that I actually did not achieve a lot.
• 04: what are you listening to?
• Dubstep at the moment.
• 05: what’s something you’re not looking forward to?
• Not looking forward to becomming a real adult with real boring job. Don't want to grow old either.
• 06: where do you think your best friend is right now?
• Driving back from one city to pick me up at the moment indeed.
• 07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days?
• Yes, I did. Kind of lot of people I kissed indeed. haha. 
• 08: sex on the first date?
• No fucking way
• 09: kiss on the first date?
• Nooooo
• 10: is there one person you want to be with right now?
• I am with that person actually at this very moment.
• 11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
• half of the time. I wish I had more money and I could travel more, buy more of luxuries and live trouble free life. But on the other hand I live with a person I love, we try so hard to build up our future and I earn some money from my passion. Even if it's not too much sometimes :)
• 12: is there something you would like to say to someone?
• Yes 
• 13: what are three things you did today?
• Dog sitted. Read the book about Femminism. Ate Ice cream.
• 14: would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
• I love both ways, I adapt very quickly to the situation and beds. When I was a kid I used to change beds all the time, so now I am fine with both ideas.
• 15: what is your favorite kind of gum?
• I don't like gum....
• 16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?
• I don't have ex boyfriend
• 17: what is on your wrists right now?
• A bracelet I bought in Milan. I adore it...
• 18: ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?
• Nope
• 19: does anyone have strong feelings for you?
• Yes. A few people, that's what I know, at least :)
• 20: are you slowly drifting away from someone?
• From my parents I guess. I never thought I'd do that, my sisters did it long time ago, And I left the last one, who is so into taking care of parents. But now it's time for me to drift away...
• 21: have you ever wasted your time on someone?
• This is impossible. How on earth you can waste your time on people? If they leave you, or start hating you or even don't learn your lessons you teach, you can always learn from the situation or them/or move away.
• 22: can you do the alphabet in sign language?
• What? No
• 23: how have you felt today?
• Probably not the best I could feel. The past two days, including today, I feel like a failure.
• 24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
• I would add some money and probably buy a winter coat, Or tattoo parts.
• 25: what is wrong with you right now?
• I can't stand up and keep fighting, like I did before.
• 26: is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?
• Nope. I don't care if somebody does wrong things, it's not my business.
• 27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now?
• I'd rather have noni juice haha
• 28: why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?
• Because I didn't have one :D
• 29: how late did you stay up last night and why?
• Until 1 a.m. I could say it was early for me to go to bed. But I stayed until 1 a.m., because at 12 o'cklock inspiration started floating at me. 
• 30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
• yesterday
• 31: what were you doing an hour ago?
• I watched "parenthood" with my boyfriend and we ate ice cream.
• 32: what are you looking forward to in the next month?
• My new master's degree studies (waiting and being scared at the same time), Autumn, because I love it. Wearing combat boots all the time I guess :)
• 33: are you wearing jeans right now?
• No. Just black pants.
• 34: are you a patient person?
• Nooooo. I am the oposite as my boyfriend says. I loose it very often and my temper is awful.
• 35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
• I am in relationship for 3 years at the moment. haha. so, yes.
• 36: favorite color?
• BLACK. 
• 37: did you have a dream last night?
• Yes haha
• 38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
• I am wearing nothing :D
• 39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
• I was cuddling 20 minutes ago, so, I don't want to cuddle anymore.
• 40: do you love anyone who is not related to you?
• Yes, I guess
• 41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
• Hm... probably not. Especially if it's a guy.
• 42: do you like meeting new people?
• Very much. More than anything almost.
• 43: are you afraid of falling in love?
• Nope
• 44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself?
• Not answering
• 45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
• Almost every single person I ever met :) 
• 46: have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
• Nope :D

Beautiful Flowers

I am back. At last I've got my keyboard fixed. It was a tough a week. I feel like my social life on all the networks I own is a little bit idle. Maybe it's a part of being adult, but I don't want to become one.
In a sum this week was a little bit more relaxed than all the summer. It kept raining, my mother is in hospital for a whole week and I am trying to visit her daily with my older sister. It is quite frustrating, but one thing consoles me - my future dream is going to be fullfilled at the end of this month. Even though I am not sure about it at the moment, but I feel like I am obliged to do it, since I booked it and prepeared few important people.
One more thing - I am craving for serious working out or yoga. I must start doing it, but I can't until the 27th of August.

This morning I woke up and my boyfriend gave me those beautiful flowers. They look so amazing, I love the color so much. 

And it keeps raining like this from time to time two days in a row

Keyboard problems

My keyboard is hating me and I almost can't write at all, except only using on screen one hahaha. So anyway, I've been working a lot and not much else :)

I hope I'll be able to write here soon more :)

Heat

These past few days were like a weekend to me. My love had two free days, me and my parents and my sister with her bf weren't working either, some of them don't have jobs, some of them are sick or having free days. So I spent those days in my home town. But the heat pretty much ruined lots of things. Like I like going out in the nights, but even then it was too hot. Going out at 1 a.m. and being hot. So not much I did during these days, except reading Nietzsche and liking him even more than I used to. Also feeling in love a lot and being happy.

I am wearing the shortest shorts I have ever wore in my life. This is a way to show how hot it was yesterday

It was almost the first time I swam in any kind of outdoor water this summer

Wednesday Addams

I did order a Wednesday Addams vest shirt few weeks ago. The online store is very new and I did not expected even for it to arive actually (sounds stupid, but yes). Although it did. They even actually wrote an e-mail, that one of their line was incorrectly printed and they will gladly send a new shirt. Anyway, mine wasn't in this line and it turned out to be great. After all, I am not quite satisfied with the quallity. The shirt is made like very simple and it feels like paper in some cases. However I will enjoy wearing it and I think it will be one of the very last shirts with a picture on it, which I bought. My style is more like a...I don't enjoy wearing shirts with any kind of picture on it.
But here it is

I want to believe it won't fade off soon. Also it's s size, but it is quite too big for me, I hoped it will fit better on me...

Hello, gangstas. You won't believe it - now I am eating crisps, I am not a fan of junk food maybe even the oposite, but I did not have time to eat breakfast and that was all I could find at home. I thought that I won't get through this weekend, but I did and I am happy today I will go back home. (My home now is in Klaipeda mostly).
This weekend I have been tattooing mostly and I guess I don't have a lot to tell you. This is amazing though that I found few really good friends thanks to my hobby. One of them is a almost 40 years old man, who is amazing and we get along so well. He looks very young, reads lots of books and listens to the same music as I do, almost.... And I tattooed him yesterday, he and my father got drunk a little bit, so it baecame on one hand unbearable.

Back

Today was actually better than yesterday, but not as good as I am used to :D I am back at my hometown, again, a little bit tattooing, busy and stuff.

I remade a tattoo I started a half an year ago haha. We never had time to finish the piece, until I we sat down together and I understood that I had changed a lot with my tattooing. Also, she has a little kid, it's difficult to find time in these cases. 

And this is me with my new temporar hair color and look. Not sure if I like it or not :)

"Parenthood"

I can't remember myself feeling so awful from the inside and outside, I have this total lack of desire to work. I am just hopinng that it won't last too long. Therefore I found new TV show, I think I will like it. I needed something cosy and a little bit helpful, with no drama. Just watching. It is called "Parenthood", I think none of my readers will like it, but I do.

Have you ever felt any kind of depression or negative feeling because of your certain age? After my birthday I am feeling awfully old and just like the time is flying so fast. I also today have a huge headache and I have to go to my home town to have some work done. I wish I felt better now, I have no idea how I will pass this day.
Yesterday though I drew a half of the day almost. At first it felt tough, because it's been a while I held a pencil, but after 20 minutes of drawing it felt amazing. But something is wronf with the paper. I should use a simple one after all.

The paper makes it difficult to show the strokes actually. I think I should quit it after I will draw it out hahaha