Cat on scars

Today I worked with tattoos a little bit. But I am not too happy about the results. The lines were straight, but something wasn't that good. Maybe because I started trying and caring too much. Tomorrow though I have this important tattoo if everything will be great. Will see if I'll succeed.

I did this cat on scars.

aaaaaand me

Morning walk

This morning was amazing. We woke up and with no breakfast went out for a walk. We rarely walk around Klaipeda, the city where we live most of the time, becaue it is most of the time windy and cold, also we live far away from the center. But it was amazing and even if I got cold in the end of the walk and very hungry, I still relaxed a lot. But now I have to sort some things out and go to the lectures. At least my belly is full of food now....

We found this ice sculpture which is already melting.

I should try meditating more...

This day was kind of amazing. Yesterday we watched quite a few movies about meditation. I tried it a little bit again and it felt great. I also got a courage to write a letter to one of the best tattoo shops around the area and almost in a whole country. I knew that one aprenticice got fired and I thought I shoud try. I knew they don't write back if they don't like your works. So I sent my works and I got a letter back. The tattoo artist himself wrote me from his personal e-mail, because he wanted to save my information. He wrote that they already have a new guy instead of the old one. That if I will keep going it is gonna be awesome. And that if something will come up or change in a shop (like if he won't like a new guy) he will write me and wished me good luck in a creative work. Like how great is this? He saved my information and acknowledged me as a tattoo artist. First time I wrote them it was last year when I was just a little chicken, they did not even tried to reply and they didn't care. And now this same tattoo artists is saving my information and I am in a line if something will come up. I am like wow. I can't believe. I don't see myself as a tattoo artist yet myself.

I should start meditating more

Michaël Borremans

Today I found this artist. I really liked his paintings, the ideas and also the strokes so much. I am not getting deeper into his biography or geography :D but just wanted to share his works with you, if you haven't seen any of his works yet.

My favourite one. Really capturing

Look at the strokes and anathomy. Amazing....

Weekend

Today we spent a day nicely. We traveled a little bit, walked so many miles and just spent our precious time in good weather. Deep in my heart I hope that this weather would stay and this would be the end of the winter. But you never trust Lithuanian winter, it always comes back, hence I do not expect it to continue.
Today I also ordered the B-day gift for my love. I could not buy him more expensive thing, so I chose the thing having a middle price. And maybe after his big day I'll write more about this gift...
Yesterday it was fun. We slept in a tent at Paul's mom. That was awesome.

Today we visited the place where Paul used to live

It is really sad that the weekend is already over and tomorrow I'll have to attend lectures

I am back

Hi internet peeps. I've been terrible in updating this blog, but I have like tones of explanations why I have been absence for this long. As I scrolled down on my blog, I saw that I bloged just few times a week few months. But shit happens.
Firstly the spring came and it brought a lack of vitamines and a desire to start exercising. But for now I will have to exercise at home, because I am saving for my boyfriend's present. It's quite expensive for my pocket, but I am sure I am getting it for his birthday. I know he will love it. Later maybe I'll post about it, when I buy it I guess.
Also I have been tattooing a lil' bit. I want to tattoo more, because practice makes perfect. But I don't have too many possibilities for that to happen yet.

Movie time

Today I watched two documentary movies with my love and along with that one casual movie. I didn't think I'll like it. From the trailer it looked pretencious, but when I got to watch it, I instantly got drawn into it. I love art, I love photography, lesbians and drugs. What else a good movie can offer? hahaha. The movie's title is "High art". I got so inspired by it, that I actually had to put all the efforts to go the lecture. Gash.

And I also got inspired today by a movie about Yakuza tattoos. I wish I could tattoo as great as they do that and the ink stays so vivid all the human's life. amazing

Awesome movie for tattoo lovers

Playing games

I don't get it - so many people are getting married or pregnant from my environment. It scares the shit out of me. Because I am still a child from the inside and out haha.
I have so many things to be done, but I don't want to. The spring is alredy in my body doing damage. I feel cold, tired and most likely sick. But I have a tattoo today. To go back to Klaipeda. And to attend 2 boring lectures about statistics. :(

It was totally straight in reallity. But the arm is moving, therefore I could not capture it.

Yesterday though we spent so much great time with my love and his brother. For an instance playing game where you have to guess artists watching paintings. Awesome and very educating. Also yesterday I could not not to play this typing game: http://play.typeracer.com/ . Fucking awesome.

Tattoos and stuff

Today I have been tattooing a little bit. Like always I want to be better, but some things just keep holding me back. But today we also watched olympics.

Watching Ice hockey with tea

Valentine? Or Valentino?

I have to assure you I do not celebrate Valentine's day. It is a totally made up celebration to spend more money. Therefore we both agreed this is not happening. Especially since I had to tattoo and we also had to go to our home town in order for me to continue working. But eventually we had some wine and a delicious dinner at Paul's mom. We also had a nice walk. I don't know what it is up to me, I try to make this day as much simple as any other day, but it always turns out to be a great day. It was a great day and it was nice ;)  But I don't get what is the fuss about. I never did even when I was a child. Now it looks even more foolish to me. I remember myself when I was a kid girsl were compieting which one of them will collect more sticker hearts. I compieted to collect 0 of them and if anyone wanted to give me one I would offer to give it to other girls. haha.

This is Paul's mother and her boyfriend + Paul 

Paul's brother

Today's tattoo

Lil' bit shopping

I almost never shop now, especially nothing for myself. But I thought that I save too much recently and decided to spoil myself a little bit. So today we visited some shops and I bought some necessary oils for making natural cosmetic. Not sure when will I start, because I always use only pure oil and I never felt the necessity to make any mixes out of the oils, I also bought etherial orange oil. Smells amazing, like it's Christmas again. Therefore I put some on my cloths before I headed to the lectures.

as you can see I gained some weight during winter. But I am trying to exercise us much as I can recently. Also the blouse is so amazing at some point, but at the same time it's not haha. I love the design, also it's soft, but it has some kind of little particles on the material that makes me feel uncomfortable in my own skin. 

and ooooooils with rose water <3

I am ready to start living

I would love to start enjoying my life now.... Even if it's raining, I haven't achieved anything significant, but I am young and spring is coming. I should be thankful for free education I am getting now and that if I will graduate next year, I will be with a masters degree. I have to find those positive things in my life. Because today it was so difficult to get to the lectures because of the rain. Also because I was tattooing my love's leg before that and it reminded how much I like it... We did a tattoo of Tolstoy. We both like the guy, but my love likes him more than me I guess. We have an idea to finish his buttom leg in a year or so, maybe even faster if he would stay in Lithuania.

In reality it looks quite good. However I find soooooo many things I should practice. 

We are also selling this beautiful watch I would love to own myself. It is pure, original and gold. I looove it. And we are selling it like 50 percent lower than original price.

A week ago I started exercising and I am feeling a little bit better. However I am looking forward to the spring season, because of the gym or jogging and exercising outside!!!!

Watch it!

Awesome woman.

I believe

Yesterday I was all fucked up and shit. Today I started feeling way better. I found some new possibilities in life, even though I will still feel bad in a near future, because I dislike winter a lot. Don't know why. And I also feel mostly like I am dreaming these days. But I am so happy for having so many people to support me. Especially my boyfriend and my friend Ieva. She writes me almost constantly and makes sure I am alright these days. I used to do the same. Now I am the broken branch in the tree recently. But I get one thing, that this little depression thing is not gonna take long (I want to hope so at least).

Today we went out for a casual Sunday walk and I decided to take a pic for our 4 year anniversary. However I smudged my lipstic and tried to fix it with photoshop, now my lips look phhotoshopped :D Anyway, I still love the guy. And I believe in good future together, or not.  

Inspiring person

Even though I have a tone of things to do, but I am still sharing with you a little piece of my inner and outer world. I thought what should I write, should I tell you about 3 books I am currently reading (I am always reading lots of books at the same time), or should I talk about tattoos or drawing like most of the time. But I came up with different idea. I want to share my latest inspiring person, who one day inspired me to not be afraid to run away from all the people. And this don' necessary mean that you are gonna be ungappy living not around them at all. I don't know her personally, but I wish I did. And I love love her tattoos. She lives not totally alone though and has some access to the internet. She has two children, a dog and a husband. And maybe some other animals too.

This is her forest cabin. Love love love it.

I am not sure though If I am alowed to share these pictures, even though they are on the internet. Therefore I am always comfronting myself if I should share any of my inspiration or not... 

4 years

I am so tired and so not happy about this semester. Again maybe it's only the start of new subjects and maybe I am just a little bit too scared I won't pass it this time for real. Or maybe because I don't like counting and working with statistics like at all. I am an artist and I like studying history, languages and other basics. I loved first semester, we learned about Ford and other interesting business men, and now it's only counting and shit like that. Oh well. Today for an instance I really wanted to run away from the lecture, it was like some kind of torture. Also, once I read in the article, that group works make you dumber. No wonder why all my life I was against it. I hate working with other people in groups, they seem so dumb and never get anything. Also it makes unbearable to listen to them. Mostly I try to keep in silence, even though it is quite horrible for me :D
anyways, today was 4 years officially me and my boyfriend are together. Even though he quit his job to pursue his other dreams (with my blessing, of course), we spent it quite nicely. We ate some delicious food, now he is off to grab some pizza, to celebrate all the things what are happening around us nowadays. However I do not feel too safe, but I always have a plan to quit my studies and go around the world. That would be kind of awesome.
Also, today I got this amazing gift from my bf. A book I always wanted. I am a freak when talking about natural cosmetics. I wish I had all the oils in the world and all kinds of herbs. My English suuuuucks.

You can buy it in the booths where "uoga uoga" is. It is one of my favourite cosmetic brands. Even though I use almost only the one I make myself

Not sure anymore

Recently it became more difficult to take a good selfie just because of my new hair color (Not new anymore). Therefore I am thinking of a bit lighter color. It is getting brown though, but I think I should force it a little bit too. And maybe because I am not feeling too well these days it all reflects in my photos.
 The lectures started and it is gonna be even more difficult when the first semester. Lots of counting and formulas. Well, I believe it's what they need us to do right now.

.........

I've been bussy and cold. Also my English practiclly died. Tmorrow my lectures start again. It is quite sad, because I didn't do a lot during my few free weeks. I also do not feel too much inspired lately, I feel like a robot. I write like one too.
Therefore I am gonna illustrate my recent days via instagram:

Today's tattoo

On the last day at my hometown, we tried to enjoy some table games and to have a good time.

Today I also tattooed my friend. She made the tattoo herself on my computer. It's great, because I felt too cold and too tired to care :D