Weekend

Hello, peeps.
This weekend did not go calmly as I expected, but otherwise. However I liked it a lot.
After a bunch of tattoos on Saturday me and my brother in law went to a city celebration in my hometown. I don't like them mostly, but I wanted some action, so wanted my brother in law. My sister, however, fell asleep and was way too tired to participate in any activities. Therefore we went alone. But we hanged around with total strangers, then asked few cousins to join in, they are very hilarious. We drank a little bit too much, some of us (not me haha) and did more of cool stuff.

This tattoo looks very great in reality, however the picture is terrible

Stupid instagram blur :D

Then after all the work I've done, I went to my sister's and we tattooed her. She is not the best person to manage pain, but now she sat through it as a rock. And the idea behind this tattoo is that she loves her cat (who wouldn't) and this one looks very similar to hers. 

Lazy week

Hello, readers.
This week was strange, but I have them from time to time. I worked a really small amount of hours. I also felt like I needed to restart all my life at this point. And I am also dark brown again. Like always - I do something and when I try to reverse it back.
However I spent some good quality time with my two friends this week and I felt nice about it, since I don't get to meet them often, because I am constantly working (not this week though).
That's about it. I also rewatched "sex and the city". I did not do any of my homework (sketches for clients). The less I work, the more I feel lazy :D So I let myself flow this week. I started exercising though, which is great. Now I have sore muscles.

Crush It!: Why NOW Is the Time to Cash In on Your Passion

Recently I have downloaded this book. And I loved it. It is an easy to read kind of book, however with some useful tips for those who are trying to build a personal brand. Did you know that no matter if you have a lot of friends and followers or not on FB, Tw, IG etc. or else, you are still creating your personal brand? That's what I think too. We all put ourselves out there and the way we do, make us different from others.
However I always miss a true advice in that type of books. It feels that something is always left out. Like in a positive thinking books too - you never get so inspired and never find the main key. It felt the same with this book unfortunately.
But it is a good reading.
I wrote here some quotes I liked:

"if u want it badly enough, the money is there, the success is there, and the fulfillment is there. all u have to do is take it. so quit wining, quit crying, quit with the excuses."

"the thing is, if u're living your passion, u'e going to want to be consumed by your work. there is no room for relaxation with popcorn and watch tv kind of way"

Confused

This time my weekend was pure work and almost nothing more. At least today I went for a long walk with my sister as we used to, when we were younger. It was an amazing weather and it felt great.

I also started a journey of dyeing my hair blond. I am in a good middle, but now started doubting a lil bit. Thinking if I'll look good and shit. But hopefully tomorrow I'll try this hair dye at last, since I used only dye remover, which worked, as I mentioned on the previous post. So the hair dye I am gonna use (hopefully) is without bleech and maybe it would be better for my hair and if I changed my mind I could go back to darker color. Not that dark anymore though. This hair situation really sucks, since I don't really know what color works for me. For an instance, when I was black, people kept telling me that I look older. Then I dyed my hair blond, they started saying that I don't look as sexy as I used to. Then I went for my natural color and people said I looked plain and not interesting. Then I dyed them darker brown, people said I looked older. Now when my hair is light brown they say that fair does not fit me at all, like dark color did. What the heck? So which color suits me? Not sure anymore...

Yesterday at last I put on some make up and took some pictures. I never use cream powder on my skin, since it is too sensitive and I use only natural products on it to keep it moist. But I wanted to learn how to contoure my face, therefore I put it on. I must say I was kind of happy about the results, however I should really get a contouring stick in a future. When or If I have more money.
And today I tattooed. It took me hours to finish and now when I am free, everyone who invited me this week to meet up, can't now. I hate this thing. My cellphone, while I was working, was buzzing and two days in a row I had to decline all my friends and sisters, because I had so much work, and now when I am free this evening, everyone is suddenly busy. Fuck.

As you may notice, I am in a process of changing the color of my hair. I am not doing it quick, that is why I call it a process :D I remember myself at my teen years, wen I decided to become a platinum blond from the darkest shade of black during a week or so. I had no hair whatsoever. So now I am a grown up, a very responsible person. And I use a dye remover. It really works, even though I did not expect it to. It even does not damage hair (almost). Of course I am applying it as a child and I am even scared to look at my back.  And it helps that I wasn't very dark  brown or black. I was a little bit lighter and I did not dye my hair more after the hairdresser.
Of course, when I remove the biggest part of the hair dye, I will visit a hairdresser. But I assumed that I will have to pay money for the things I can do myself at the moment. And it will be easier to visit a hairdresser when or if I remove most of the dye, because I will have to do it less times. muhahaha.

Enjoying a free day

Yesterday I had a free day, at last. It felt so great being alone at my apartment with fucked up artist clothes and drawing all day long. This was a refreshing day. While I did this big design, I also watched some movies.

And I watched a bunch of documentaries on various topics. I kind of liked a documentary about Salinger:

He was an extraordinary writer. However I remember myself reading his bestseller the "catcher in the rye" and I did not like it too much actually. Maybe I was expecting too much, maybe I was too young (I was 12 years old back then), or maybe I just did not get it, therefore I am thinking or reading it once again.
I also watched:

Yeah, I am kind of into Robin Williams and I have always been, so that was kind of interesting.
And I watched a bunch of more documentaries, however I do not remember the names or topics. It is just hard to find something I'd love to watch, since I watched like half of them on youtube. And I am  definitely running out of famous people to watch about...

What I was up to...

I've been as always busy. Working a little bit, spending time with my friends and loved ones.
I just spent 5 hours tattooing and now I am kind of tired, however, I have to eat and then visit my mother in law and get my package.
But one thing does not add up to me - how come I am so busy and working all the time, but I get no results almost. Tat's a secret. That is why I am considering a new career for myself. I am thinking of becoming a stewardess for reals. This is the job that suits all my wishes and expectations: travelling, looking good and maybe having a contact with pilots :D I also match all the requirements. Maybe maybe I am not sure yet. I had no plans for this summer whatsoever and it hurt my feelings - remembering that last year at this time I was looking forward to travelling to USA and now I am just back in Lithuania and even not sure about this summer. But I figured it out: I am gonna work my ass off this summer with tattoos and maybe even get a job at a hospital, maybe I'll visit my boyfriend in England, then after the summer, I a thinking something booom. Like visiting France at first, maybe Taize, then maybe India and then going back to Spain and maybe even looking for a place there and a job. But these are only plans. Now I must save :D and get better at tattooing and drawing for a while. Then will see.

My mom gave me this real gold old ring. I am so happy :) with it

Princess Diana obsession

Few weeks ago I stumbled across a book about Diana the Princess of Wales. I kind of like biographies, so I started reading it. And then the obsession began....
I never thought of Diana as a cool person. I thought she just was a boring princess and blah blah blah. But no, she was a princess of people. She was kind, cute sweetheart. And her death. I must say, I always thought it was a conspiracy from the beginning. I even thought so when I was 7 years old and she suddenly died in this car crash. Some of the details does not add up to me, but maybe I am just dreaming. However, her death seems so romantic and interesting to me. Paris, night, two lovers (one of them not too much in love though), photographers all over the place, a nice car and two bodyguards. Sounds romantic as hell. So I watched like three documentaries on a single case  - Diana's death. Some more about herself. And few documentaries of her interviews. I am a little bit obsessed.... i guess.

Gianni Versace

It is not a secret that I love biography stuff, everything: movies, books etc.
Therefore, when I saw a book about Versace, I grabbed it instantly.
I liked this guy, he was a very hard working man, he knew what he was doing. Talking not only about clothes, but also the advertising, choosing right managers to manage his huge empire and so on. The book is easy going. I liked it a lot. Not because it was kind of easy, just because it did not talk about his personal relationships too much, just a little about his quite normal and good childhood and his boyfriend. He was gay, yes, however he never felt like he should talk about it, like he shouldn't if he wasn't.
I liked the visuals a lot (like always). The pictures were amazing, like the pictures of his houses and clothes and he is just a very very attractive person. I would've love to meet him, however, he is not among us anymore.
I suggest for you to dig deeper into this person's life and career. He was a hard working man and I am proud of what he have done. It inspired me to work more and do not waste my time on shitty things I don't need. I wish I could say that I have done enough at the end of time :)

My weekend

My weekend was full of movement.
We had a little party or rather a gathering in the sauna, which my uncle built few years ago and it is still in a little bit progress. Then I visited my sister's husband's parents with them and then I saw the new house they are building for themselves. Yes, my sister is gonna have a house soon and I am very happy for her. Then on Sunday I met with my ex course mate, now she is my friend I guess. And I repierced her lobes in a coffee house. That was an interesting experience. Then we grabbed some icea cream and went to see the sea. That was a really nice weekend and it would've be nicer if I would've been in a better mood. My life is in a huge hole now and I can't help it, I just keep falling.
Which is why I took this picture haha

My life A sucks

So basically I am free from University for a whole year now and I could not be happier. I was so stressed about these studies and I think they were kind of a mistake of mine, since I am not gonna be a manager (hopefully). And if you want to have your own business, these studies won't help you whatsoever. But I will have to graduate I want it or not, because I've got a free spot and if I wouldn't I would have to pay back for University the money they spent on me. Don't get me wrong, I was a good and loyal student, I graduated bachelor degree with good grades and I got this free spot only because I was such a good student, I even passed all my exams, even the most difficult ones. But this year I just got tired, I was stressed most of the time and I don't need that diploma right away, for a record, I don't need it at all for my dreams to come true. So I decided to take a year of, only with a permission from my doctor and three others. I got so stressed while I gathered all of them and got to the university, this week was awful. And my boyfriend did not get a job yet in England and the car insurance is more expensive than a car in UK. It is an interesting country by the way... And everything is falling apart now, so looking forward to the future (NOT).

It has been a week my boyfriend's away, but I did not feel lonely yet, not even a minute, not even when I wanted this. My friends - they needed full of my attention this week, also my clients, now my family. Looking forward to a new week, maybe I'll get some alone time. Since I am living all by myself....

Difficult

This week is so difficult and heavy to me. I kind of would love to not exist at the moment, ugh.
I have so much to do with University shit and so much waiting waiting waiting. Everything requires waiting and nothing can be done at the time. I also have little bit less of clients and y English sucks...

I am back

I am not sure why I abandoned this blog nowadays. However, I've noticed, that it's not only me. I do not have anything to read online at the moment and maybe it is a common problem...
What I was doing this week? I was working as always, as I recall, also I let go my boyfriend away to England or Ireland, not sure anymore. He is starting the new chapter of his life. We have a plan, don't worry.
I did not have much time to meet with my friends though, but I spent a nice weekend with my family. Watching horror movies and eating junk food was the favorite part of it, however, none of the scary movies do scare me anymore, so at some point I even started laughing and it was too much for me.
I'll add some of my recent works i did over past few days: