Potato Potato

Today I spent time with my friend at lats. We kind of are a little bit busy, both of us, so we don't meet up that often. It was nice. I was kind of looking for new shoes and a jacket at the same time, but couldn't find neither of them, because I am very selective and the stores do not have my size often, especially my shoe size. That is why I bought none.
Today I tried to live positively. But I did not succeed. I eneded up depressed about everything again. I have no job almost (nowadays) and it makes me feel so sad. But at least I exercised a lot and even got a little tan at last.
On the better note, I am going to Irealand or north England (potato potato) next week to visit my boyfriend and so many more people. I am sure I will have plenty of things to do there. And maybe I'll take a break from everything and everyone. Which would be great.
I know I am not keen on this country, but I am hoping that it's gonna be my first and last time visiting it. And you have to see as many countries as possible, I believe.

My friend went to this festival and she had a henna tat on herself. I was so jealous. That started me thinking I should really buy henna dye at last

Princess Diana again

Seariously what is wrong with me? I am so obsessed with this woman. I watched, I think, all of the documentaries about her. The long ones, the short ones and now I even watched a movie. But I am not sure if that was a recent one and I should check out for more.
But it was quite accurate. At first I did not like the actress that much. She wasn't (In my oppinion) that similar to Diana. However, looking at the distance, they look very alike. But then she started talking and I realized that she pretty much copied her voice and tone plus pace. That was so awkardly good. When I started liking this movie and an actress.
Oh my God, this obsession of mine is so dumb. But I love Princess so much right now :( I am so sad that she died. But at the same time this surrounds a mystery around her. Ugh...

Oops

I haven't been here for almost a week. There are few reasons why: first and biggest one is that my computer broke. I refreshed it back to it's start and lost all of my files, but now I cannot connect to the internet, therefore I am sitting here and blogging on my father's pc, which is way older. Second reason was that my whole week was so chaotic. I tattooed so much, haven't a free day whatsoever. Also met with so many nice people, but most of them the same. Found a kind of new friend, but not my type actually. I also visited my mother in law, who got back from Greece. She brought me a nice hair clip, which is very old school Greece. So much happened on this week. I like action very much.
Today after meeting my friend and before the little tatto I've got to do, I visited some of the shops. I was looking at this ring, but I didn't let myself to buy it. However, today I did it very fast and not thinking at all. It wasn't cheap, but  I love it. It is Lady D's engagment ring replica. It is so royal and feels so great wearing it. I bought it just for that sort of purposes. Nice nice nice. And they got my size only too. Very lucky indeed.

Gym

So it's been only a week I am exercising, but I already see some results. At some point I am lucky, like my belly - most of the time it looks good and does not need a rough training, because when I was a teen I exercised only on my belly haha. However, like most of the people, I have weak spots. Like my thighs - they really need some work done, although I can already see some good results. But my arms and shoulders are the worst and I know that. They are week and uneven, therefore I am concentrating on them at the moment. I feel a little bit better now, but they still have so much work done on them.
I know that It has only been a week and a little bit more maybe, however I try to not a miss a day without going to the gym, even though now I'll miss 3 days, because I have to go back to my hometown to get some work done. And I know that you have to exercise for 6 mounts to see results, but on some parts I already see them.
I always was hesitant if I should join gym, but now then I did, I am thinking why the hell I did not do it earlier? It also has sauna and I have spent some time there today. Felt so relaxing...
It is totally different from when I used to go to the gym last year, because I am now more confident and I ask questions if I do not know how to train. I also use more of the things the gym provides. Most of them for sure. So that's cool I guess. And I have so much more energy right now. I am so happy about this, because this was my main problem recently. I have half free day and after the gym I already done so much. Like I cleaned all my apartment, which is huge haha :D

Look at my left arm, It never looked so big. Even though it's not yet at all haha

Nice day

Since it's summer, I'll try to post more, because more things are happening. But at the same time I have less time now.
Today was very nice. I also joined the gym at last. I was so always saying that I will eventually, but I never did this year, because of the lack of money or time. Now my shower kind of broke and I am waiting for my landlord to fix it, therefore I had a reason to join the gym. I can shower there haha :D this is a motivation for me to exercise. Anyways, so I go to the gym almost every morning. Then today I tattooed and I got a little bit proud of myself, because I had to cover this older tattoo with colors and I succeeded. Then my little sister came (with whom I spend a small amount of time) and we went to grab a pizza. Then the coffee. Then shopping a little bit. She bought some stuff, I bought a Lithuanian designer bag, which I liked for ages. It's big - what I needed for my tattoo kit. It has so many space and sections too. I also got a half price off it, because the seller was a gentleman and he kind of gave me it, but I promised a discount for a tattoo to him.
So, in general, I liked today. It was cozy and simple. It is kind of over though :(

I've noticed that my hair got very long. Even though they're kind of crappy now and I am considering changing a color a little bit. 

The Angriest Man in Brooklyn

I also watched this movie with Robin Williams and Mila Kunis yesterday. I liked it, not in a way that I would watch it all over again, but I shed few tiers actually. The movie wasn't what I expected though. It got sad at a times and reminded me of the things we are loosing while being unhappy or mean. And it is one of the last movies with Robin, which was kind of moving. Also, some of the parts really looked like the parts from his life. Like the one, where he tried to kill himself, also talking before killing himself.
I know that this movie is mainstream and is not artistic in a any way, but I suggest you to watch it, if you will have any free time.

Blur

My weekend wasn't interesting at all. I spent it working and being with my family. It was my mother's birthday, but she felt a little bit depressed, therefore it wasn't fun at all. But We gave her some nice presents, which didn't clear her mood too. So basically it was a waste :D
This summer is no fun at all. All my friends and family members do not feel alright, therefore I don't either. Of course, I have stuff to be depressed about. For God's sake I live all alone and I am working constantly, and I am so tired all the time. But I still love summer and I still enjoy it, but then I meet my friends or folks, I instantly feel depressed. Gosh..

Pocketbook touch 2

Hello, E-readers :D
Yep yep, I bought an e-reader, at last. I feel so happy, since I can have all the books in one small device and travelling will be much easier. Of course, I will still read real books (I love them too much), but it will be way way easier now. Waiting will not be as traumatic as it used to be, since you cannot always carry around a book you're reading. It can be too heavy, to thick or it's not yours and you are afraid to lose it.
Anyways, I thought I'll buy an Aamazon kindle. Since I bought one for my boyfriend for his birthday. Then I went to choose one and I kind of did not like kindle anymore. I saw this white pocketbook on a shelf and I felt an instant attraction to it. It was a better choice for me, since it has few buttons, which is great while reading. One button for going down page, another one for up and few for options and going back. Also, you do not have to change a format, like you have to on kindle. You just easily apload files via usb with no efforts whatsoever. And I liked the design more. It's half white, which is so cute and suits me so well. It resembles to my vaio computer too.
In general I am so happy about this purchase. I like collecting and reading books a lot. It costs around 129 euros. But I think it's worth it. And maybe it's cheaper in other countries too.

Free day

Today I made myself a free day, like most of the Mondays. I invited my friend to do something together, since my stress level is very very high at the moment and I needed a day to relax. But I couldn't.... I am so tired and so stressed most of the time at the moment,  I wish this time in my life would fade away... asap.
But we spent today nicely, shopping, going for a walk and then seeing a sunset with her boyfriend and a daughter near the sea. That was an amazing time. I wish I did not feel that stress.

Confession

I am not sure how I am suppose to do all the things I assigned myself for. I am having a little crisis to what is happening to me at the moment. One thing I am sure of is that I want to keep tattooing, even though, this profession is harder than I have ever imagined. When I started 2 and a half years ago, I did not know that is gonna be so difficult, I cried during these years, made myself miserable, I made mistakes and all this I did without a teacher. I wish I had one, because sometimes it gets very tough. These few past days I've been tattooing like crazy, that put me in a difficult spot - I don't always have time to answer all the messages I get, that is how I lose a lot of clients, because they want a fast communication. I don't always have time to work on the sketches they desire me to do. I don't always go with rules whilst communicating with clients. My main concern is the lack of time at the moment actually. I don't think that most of people see how difficult it is to become a good tattoo artist, which I am not yet. It takes all your time, you work non stop from morning to the night. Of course, this does not happen always, but if you have a free minute, you sketch, you draw, you try to get better.
However, my other concern is my fatigue at the moment. I feel a little bit drained and I wish I could go somewhere and take a break. I am tired of people demanding all my attention and not having an assistant who could help me out. I have tones of unread messages and people sometimes get mad or frustrated. I wish they could realize that I don't always have time to even wash my hair or do my nails. And I am not sure if this job is rewarding enough. I wish it was actually, but maybe I am too silent or too humble at a times and I don't get credit for what I do. But I always notice my mistakes and if someone criticizes me, that is like stabbing me with a huge knife in my back. However, I get so many compliments and people do really notice me, and I just take it for granted. Which I hate, I feel horrible.
But I must realize that it is a tough time at my life and I have to keep fighting till the end. If that is not my destiny to be a tattoo artist, I shall relapse and find something else to do in my life. I am so hopping that I am in a right path, however I am not sure if I am. I really need someone to hold my hand through this, to have a teacher, a person who would help me to deal with people or common problems with tattooing, I really need one. But it is not easy to get it. Since this area is so competitive and not much of the artists want to get involved with someone new. Which puts me into a difficult spot - I am a lonely wolf now with my shitty problems :D

The tattoo I did yesterday

10 most required tattoos at my shop!

Sometimes by looking at a person or his/hers photos I can assume what kind of a tattoo he/she wants. There are types of people who like this type of tattoos or that type of tattoos haha. Therefore I made a list of ones, which were demanded most (from me personally):

1. Birds. I did a buuuunch of them. I could not count or make a number. I cannot remember how many of them I did actually. I am happy that this fashion is fading little by little though. Because I get tired of tattooing birds for real :)

2. Feathers. There is a bunch of them out there, any kind of, mostly with birds again. But I like doing them, since I am not good at it. I wish I could do them more lightly. But I am a heavy handed tattoo artist and I must accept it.

3. Dandelions with birds. I hate this one. Thankfully this one is coming out of fashion too.

4. Tribal tattoos. I kind of dislike big tribals. It is easy to do the outline, but filing is a huge pain in the ass. Especially if tattoo is a big one. 

5. Dragons. This is one is one of the favorite tattoos to do for me. I like any types of them: tribal, realistic, simple, cartoon. Everything will work for me, just give me a damn dragon.

6. Maori. I am not sure why men are into maori so much lately. I am hopping this will go away as any other tattoo style a.s.a.p. It's big, it takes so much time and doing stencils is crazy...

7. Infinity symbol. Why people are so into this, I don't know? But I am pretty sure I did a bunch of them... Indeed.

8. Forest or nature tattoo. You may be surprised, but recently I have done so many of them. I am not sure why. They also take a lot of time. Usually it takes me few sessions to finish. But it is easy to get an effect. So... 

9. Kanji. Some people do not actually know the real meaning of them, but they still want to get them. However, most of the time they look good somehow. They really do.

10. Wolfs. I have done quite a few of them during my career. They are still desirable and wanted actually and I like doing animals. They are furry and their eyes always turn out to look good.

This is my personal list of all my tattoos. These tattoos are most wanted from me, I am sure that any other tattoo artist would have his/hers personal list. However, I wish that some of the people would be more original. Also I'd love to get more experience at interesting designs. I also wish that more people would choose my drawings/designs, but if not, I'd love more clients to choose more interesting cliche tattoos like roses (which I like most), Buddhas, anchors, hearts even butterflies would be great actually, better than birds for real :)