I am alone at home

Today I got my cloths, if you are interested. Met a really nice girl, who will be my stylist. We talked a lot today, not about the photosession, of course. She is interesting.

Love this skirt a lot

The dress is not facinating a lot. It needs some adjsutments

And I underwar dress. Don't know how to call it

All the cloths are too big for me, except the last dress, which is underwear. Today I cannot concentrate, I am sorry. I type with a lot of mistakes and my computer is crashing down, somehow. So, I am gonna take some jewelry and shoes and maybe some dresses too. Looking foraward to be photographed by a good photographer. And I realy liked new painting technique, which we tried today. Also, I am glad to be alone at home for a while. Really missed to be alone....mmm

Me gusta

Ok ok, I am sorry for not blogging a lot. I know I suck.
Here we go... This Saturday I'll be photoshooted with cloths, which I would see tomorrow. I guess it will be a sweet old dress or something. Not trying to guess what style it will be.
Half of this day I was in a really bad mood. I am glad now I will have a really interesting photoshoot on Saturday also I had an amazing pizza with my friend today and I bought a really good book. The whole book about hair and how to wash them with natural products. That is something what Vestina likes. Taking care of her hair.
So, I am looking foraward to the photosession on Saturday, also to tomorrows lectures (we are gonna paint using new technique), also to the Spring and to see my dress..... and and and... I am tired. Wanna go read my new book, which I like a lot. And also, maybe tomorrow or on Friday I am going to the sewing/design school to talk about me stuying there. I guess they could only take me the other year, but that would be great. In 4th course we won't have a lot of lectures and I would have 2 professions, also I would be able to study design in the University or college after the studies in that school. Wish me luck, guys. This week is so crowded.
I also had to visit dentist today and my teeht hurts so much after pizza.... ahr

Me gusta this book.

Cindy Sherman

Today I found an interesting person. I don't know if she inspired me, because at this moment in my life I don't know if it's possible. But I like that she is a photographer an a model. That is something extraordinary to me. I am used to see people who just are models, or photographers. But you can be both. And also she created movies, or participated in creating them. Don't know very well. If you will be interested in her you can read and check her photos here cindysherman
Gonna make some pancakes today. I am so bad at cooking recently. Feel so tired after lectures today...

I didn't know Zooey Deschanel has that sort of picture. But I like it. We all have our secret whores inside of us, as she said... Also, she has a quite nice waste

I am a hosewife

Since I am back to our crappy appartment and drinking ugly coffee, I consodered I should write something here.  Life is so boring in winter. All day long you stay at home. You don't get any invitations from your friends. Also, one of my friends moved to Alaska. Which is very sad.
It's enormous coldness outside and I feel tired. We started studying a lot and I don't know if I want to work.
Today I found a really nice linen fabric which I will embroider and make a bag. looking forward to embroider something. My mother in law is knitting such beautiful clothes, socks. She said she could teach me, but I don't know if I am very able to do this. I have very weak nerves. But I want to knit a dress so much.

My baked bread. People liked it so much. I feel happy

I am a damn hosewife. My linen fabric

An accidence we saw this week. I like taking strange photos with my cellphone

 ‘It’s nice to be able to try and build the life you want for yourself. All the things you start off with are given to you by somebody else. You have to be brave and try to start again. It might be a little scary. Not many people say “let’s start life over and do it again the way I want to.”’ - A qoute I found today

Zara

Ok. I am a bit obsessed with zara shop. Well, we have all our obsessions. One thing is that I don't want to have cloths from one shop, also, it's not my style very much. At least I would know what my style is. One day I just adore wearing bohemian cloths, another day I am just a leather jacket and high heels chick.
You  know that with this I am going somewhere. Recently I visited zara shop and found such beautiful shoes with high heels. I didn't want to try them on, because I wore too  much of socks that moment and I didn't want to fall in love with them more, because I didn't have too much money. Also, I am not quite sure if I should wear high heels. It's a pity I fall in love with high heels. Because when I wear them, I am a bit taller than my boyfriend is. And I believe that the shoes I fell in love with are the ones who you cannot wear too much, because it's had to walk with them.

And I don't know which color I should take if I will save some money to buy them and if they will fit me well. 

Yesterday I made a home made bread by myself, I am kinda proud of myself. And today I will have to bake it and prepear a new canvas for new week. A big one. We are strting to work a lot this year. Long work's ahead. Also homework. Have to copy a lot of thing from anathomy book. Huh

Love Cellphone pics

Today is sooooo cold outside. I am so happy I am going home by car, wouldn't handle to go to bus station. An Enormous wind is blowing and snow and -25 C degrees

I wear three pairs of thick socks

mmm... Fall

I found this fella on the street

My handsome boy when he was 3 years old. Personal archive

My sister's and mine work heads :D she is a hairdresser I am a painter

haha. Liked this pic

My graphi works, They look disguisting because of the quallity of the picture :D

My painting, this man. Lecturer took it away from me

For fun

another not finished disaster

The project I was working on for the psychologists. Well, this wasn't a finished one. I didn't have a time to take photo of th finished project. Also, have to paint with bad quallity wall colors and from my head. Not using anything and had to work fast. And me and my friend Gintare, we cut a bigger hole than we had to. 

mmm...zara...mmm... the beatles... :)

measuring my hair. That happened yesterday

showing my ugly face with no make up. 

3 months ago. Now my hair looks thicker and longer a lot. Everything is going well. Looking foward to the summer. Muhahaha

40

1. what makes you feel most alive? - Creative work. When I can use my imagination and talents
2. describe your best kiss. -  I hade so many of them I couldn't choose one 
3. can you love someone without loving yourself? - No. I always fail in that case
4. what’s your favorite physical possession?- I don't understand the question
5. do you think you live in the past, present, or future? - I am more the future person. But I try to live in the present as much as it's possible, even though it's very hard to achieve, when I cannot be with my boyfriend, to travel and do wat I want :)
6. do you prefer dating someone you’ve known for a long time, or have met recently? - Recently met. The experience I had, showed me that there are too many wrong things in the past between two people. So, it's better if you don't know him.
7. complete the sentence: “in a perfect world…” - I could live without my ego and won't be hurt
8. could you enjoy sex without committing emotionally? - NEVER
9. what’s your earliest memory? - I was a baby and my parents took me to see their parents. And I remember the lamp in my grandmother's kitchen. Don't know why I remember this... No one believes in me. I was a babay, small baby.
10. what’s something you’ll never understand about the opposite sex? - I don't know. I kinda understand everything they do and feel. No, I don't pretend to be a perfect girlfriend, but men are understandable. 
11. how do you define the concept of a soul? - I think that the soul is the spot of the light and energy. The soul cannot be bad
12. on a scale of one to ten, how would you rate your appearance? - 7. I haven't achieved a lot of things talking about my appearance, but I am working on.
13. how would you define your sense of humor? - I kinda like it. It's intelligent and simple. But not all people do (muhahahaha). 
14. if someone were to serenade you to win you over, what song would they sing? -  I had one serenade and the song was perfect for me. But I won't tell you the song. That was amazing :o 
15. are you more concerned with taste or calories when you eat?  -With taste
16. how do you decide when to let go of something? - I sit down after realising that I've gone too far... and one moment I decide I will change. And I change
17. do you believe in fate? I believe in fate, but I think that we can change it :)
18. if you could tell something to an ex, what would you say? - I don't have an ex :D but If I would have one, I would say to him "Fail" :D
19. what does the third text in your inbox say? - "Missed you" hm...
20. what are five things that make you cry? -1. Sad, homeless animals. 2. beautiful feeligs 3. when my parents cry 4. seeing the beautiful places I never bin. 5. Funerals
21. have you ever considered suicide? - Yes
22. does the end justify the means? hm... not sure
23. what was the last dream you can remember about? - About strange worlds where I live at nights. And my sisters were there...I remember. 
24. would you be more hurt by a partner having an emotional affair or a physical affair? - Wow. That's a question. Difficult one. I would be equal mad both times
25. do you think your astrological sign suits you? - Very much
26. what’s something a person should know before dating you? - That I am a total bitch. I am not a good girl and I won't lick anyone's ass...
27. do you believe in life after death? Since I was born...I do. 
28. what historical period would you most like to live in? - Hm... I would like to live in XIX century or XX. To be hippie maybe...early 70s
29. do you prefer to stand out or blend in?  - Stand out!
30. what kind of drink are you? - I am a tea
31. what’s a trait that you hate in a person? - I hate acting. You can be whoever you want, just don't act. It looks stupidly. I don't know if it's even a trait. But I hate it a lot. I can handle a lot of bad traits, I really do, but I cannot handle acting. 
32. if you could sleep with any fictional character, who would you do?  - That's a stupid question. I think I wrote before, I wouldn't have sex with a person I am not in loe with. I am not in love with any charaters. :D
33. which of your five senses could you live without? - Without....sense of humour :D kidding. Hm...If I must choose....what to loose, I would loose the sense of smell. But I like smelling a lot
34. how has your taste in music changed in the past years? - Well, it hasn't changed a lot. Maybe just that I listen to the more gentle music. Few years ago I listened almost only to metal. Now I prefer rock, also strange music. Like Devendra's Banhart. Don't know what style he is in. I hate styles.
35. what’s your favorite fairy tale? - Aladin :) Mermaid and... Beauty and the beast. And Buratinas, I adore it.
36. are looks important in a relationship? - Of course not. Unless he or she smells bad, but that is not a look. 
37. which parent are you more like?  - What? Mom or Dad? Dad
38. do you prefer to fuck or make love? - Make love
39. were you to have children, what would you name them? - Atilas for the boy. Themba for a girl. Ad now you think "poor children"
40. in general, do you prefer to ask or get asked? - I love both of them equally

Tattoos

I love tattoos. Those secret codes. I like people who have them (not too much) they seem interesting

Sometimes I like those small secret ones

Which you accidently see

I love tattoos on the tighs

And one day I maybe will have a tattoo or tattoos on my tigh/s

I like the eclectic

mmm...Tighs

Am I....?

Life is going better. At last holidays are over. I never expect this to say, but I am happy to be back in normal life. Hello studies, I am comming.
So, going to Klaipeda... and on the public traffic add I see that there is 50 percent discount to study languages. I would like to have French courses so much. But to study two languages in one time? Almost signed for the second term for Spanish classes and now... French? What I am thinking about? At leats I know that I want to study something additional. Like to have an opportunity to study in that sewing/design school in Klaipeda. That would be awesome. I have to do the more things I can.
Talking about that school, so my sister's friend is studying there, I had to take photos of her collection. But the collection is off till some time in the future. I just can't believe it's only possible.
I just have an enormous lust right now to study a lot. Am I insane?

Those book shops are amazing. I would lose myself into them. I would buy everything I could carry and pay for...

I sometimes don't understand myself. One day I am a nerd. Another one I feel like an artist. And other day I want to put on make-up and to think pink.