True beauty

This week is dedicated to my health and beauty. I am feeling quite fine, don't have to go to the university. Trying not to go outside, to wear no eye liner, I want my eye lashes to recover. Taking care of my hair. Feels good. But what is true beauty? I think I would like to make a list, how to achieve true beauty. Because everyone is beautiful.

1. Good sleep. Not too much, not too less. I never manage to sleep a normal amount of hours.
2. Healthy food. With no useless chemicals. A lot of vegetables. Try to make your own food.
3. The glow in the eyes.. The desire to live, work, love, laugh.
5. Natural cosmetic. Try to use more natural masks fo hair, face skin. I like using honey and cinamon for face skin. And as a creme I like using oils. They are awesome.
6. Try to give a break for your body after a party for an instance. Give yourself a mask, bath and a lot of water.
7. Charm. You cannot buy it. But it is very important.
8. Find what is suitable for you. Like what color of cloths make you more beautiful. Find your own style. This is important. And don't be afraid to show it.
9. Feel free. The freedome is one of the most beautiful features in beautiful people according to me :)
10. Learn how to flirt. This is importaint.
11. Whatch how you walk, sit. Not all the time, but a lot. I found out one truth, that nowadays people don't whatch themselves.
12. Be educated, intelligent, smart. Don't hide your intelligence, even if some men won't handle that. Don't act stupid, this is not cool.
13. Drink a lot of water.

These are just few steps. I think all the people are beautiful, but we just have to show the true beauty which is invisible. And to take care of our bodies.

Photography

I am in love with photography, drawing, sewing, painting. But I feel really exhausted. I don't want to do any of these things.

I adore Ellen Rogers

Saturday

So. my blog is getting boring, I can see. Whatever it is, I feel so lazy, though I work on some kind of novel at this moment. Or  book of two pages, as I call it, when I never finish my books. I lack imagination, I guess. I can think of the whole story, however I cannot get until the real action. I can just tell the story, not talking, just a story.
Yes, I know, I'd rather stay tonight here, in my room, writting all night (never did it before :), but I have to go to the "party" or whatever it's called. My sister's birthday. It seems kinda boring, also, I am not in the best mood. Thinking about Bali and Spain, Brazil and Rome, it makes me kinda sad. However, my story, on which I am working for a while, takes a place in Vilnius. Our capital city, which is very beautiful and full of old architecture. I actually really don't like thinking of the name of the country and any names at all, when I am writting. It is just me and that strange state in which I climbing.
One thing what I enjoyed today a lot is a home-baked bread. Well, my mom made it, but I helped her. It has to stay for a whole night and today it was done after an hour baking. Delicious.
One thing really bothers me - the promises. Every single day I promise myself I am not gonna spend my holidays like I did before, but no. I cannot make any significant moves, cannot do something good. At all.

I didn't drink at all :D

 

The second photo ruined by my sister. But it's her casual photo disturbing. Tradition

Those beautiful moments, when they are asleep

TV Shows

I like TV shows. Very much. But I have a strange taste and I like not all of them. I wanna make a list of the best tv shows I have ever seen.

1. "Friends". of course. I like it so much, that's why I saw this tv show like 6 times and I am still sometimes watching it with mates. It's a tradition.
2. "New girl". The best from new tv shows. I adore it, but it's a pity I always have to wait for the new series. That is so sad.
3. "Family guy". I like their humour. But it is a cartoon, I don't know if I can put it here.
4. "My name is Earl". One of the best. This tv show is so full of good jokes and good wishes.
5. "Californation". I know I know, this tv show is kinda vicious. A lot of sex scenes...nudity. But I like it. I like that it really has a deeper something in it. He is a loely writer, who gets laid almost everynight. He has a daughter, who is so clever and cool. He has that strong, strange connection with her. And he is so in love with his ex girlfriend (his daughter's mother).

There are some tv shows which I never got used to. Like "big bang theory". I couldn't even watch the first serie. Or "how I met your mother". It's kinda cool, but not sooo cool. And I really want to find new tv show, funny and good one. With no lame jokes. Smart. Deep. Is that possible after "The new girl" and "Friends"? :(

Januray

Hello, my dear babies.
I hate January, so you cannot judge me for doing and writing less. Still, I am quite happy. And blushing today a bit. Today I've got a request to be a photo model in renaissance and baroque style photoshoot. That was so unexpected nd very delightful. They said I am perfect for this role and that was a sweet thing to hear, but they are not sure if they will get the place to photographe, so it's not clear yet. The place will be in antique store, which will be cloed at the weekend and they want to take photos there. But everything is not clear yet and I am as always nervious. I like  challenges. Also, I haven't had a chance to be photoshooted in that sort of style. That is something wow. But I don't think I have a some kind of renaissance face or something. But whatev, they even can not get a place for this photoshoot, but if they do, I will definitely show you their photos. YOu can visit their site here http://www.facebook.com/pages/Monika-Penk%C5%ABk%C5%AB-Photography/114462388659143

I want to draw Antonio Gaudi's church so much. But it's crowded with decorations. I want to hang it on my wall so much <3 I adore this church. Like I a lot of people adore Eifel tower, I adore this church...

Mantra

Today I am asking myself - could a person feel more tired than I do today? At last, I passed all exams and my grades are quite good. I even got 10 from art history, well, I was studying hard. And I got 10 from composition. Which is amazing. At lats.
But I feel so tired, exhausted. I don't feel any inspiration for anything. however today I remembered one thing, on the way home I red an article about the power of word. I didn't know that the band "Beatles" have visited one guru in India and there meditated for a week. After that they released their best songs. I need a mantra too. That would be awesome... To find an inspiration mantra, which would melt inside of me.. Yes, I need it. But today I could handle a book only.

I like when people hang not only adverts on the wallls. Why the hell we need to see them everywhere? Epecially in WC. Blah

Mermaids

I am hoping to have mermaids hair soon. As long as it's possible and like a net for some fishes to catch and then release.

Lately. maybe two years I have an obssesion about the mermaids. I like all the paintings with them, and those beautiful mirrors. Mermaids always assosiate with long brown a bit wawy hair. With naked bottom and freedom to communicate with water plants and animals.

I like this mirror a lot 

I especially like Waterhouse's paintings and his Nyphs. They all try to drag a young lad into the water. They all look so young, innocent but on the other hand they know what to do, they know how to seduce a man. 

Waterhouse's drawing and painting is very strong. And the main theme is a woman...also water/mermaids/nymphs

I adore it

Be strong

"Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through."

— Ira Glass

And this inspires me to be a strong artist.. Even though I am going through some kind of crysis.

Idle

I am sorry for bad updates. You'll have to get used to me writting like this, I am so tired, exhausted and I cannot wait until the end of the exams. The last really difficult exam is tomorrow. Had studied quite hard, but not enough. A good night is ahead.
I am glad I can idle for while, I mean not taking any photos, because of the cold outside. Not painting, drawing (feel too tired, also have to study), not thinking about the future, people, myself. I just try to survive the days now. It's so good to not feel importaint for the world. No one is expecting anything from you..

I miss good weather. Now people complin I don't take any photos of them. But how?? I hope the snow will last till I get home so I could take out my sister to do a little photoshoot....

What is the purpose of me being here?

Have you ever thought what the part do you take in this world? I always thought about that. Am I created to

get married and have a family?

enjoy every single moment of my life? Travel around the world?

To be a little part of this world? But a good one, living to do good things.

To create art?

To find true beauty?

To meditate alone in the mountais for the rest of my life?

To be famous?

To care about others?

To look for a magic?

To move in to Paris?

To love?

To have a rebel life not thinking about the future?

Or to do all the things what I like?

In the past I used to think a lot about my place in this world... Until I stopped thinking and started living. In my opinion we shouldn't live all the time thinking what is the best for us. Sometimes it is so good to listen to your heart. Because to be guided by your mind is not always good. It doesn't matter if you don't have enough money, friends, talents or anything else. The most important thing is to live all the days with bright heart and mind.