Weekend

This weekend we spent quite nicely. My cousin came and my sisters too, including me to my home town and we spent an amazing Saturday there decorating our Christmas tree, drinking wine and eating cheese plus pizza. However I think I am getting allergic to wine (?). I know!!! This seems impossible, but unfortunatelly it might be.

I did only few tattoos though this weekend, but hopefully I'll get some done tomorrow :)

X-mas Wish-list

I have some photos to share, but instead I am gonna just share (like every year on my blog) a Christmas wishlist. I will repeat myself, as every single year I do, that I never almost get anything from my wishlist, maybe I don't know how to ask, but... again, I'll buy some of these thing smyself I guess. So, lets start:

First of all, the best gift this year is gonna be, when my boyfriend will get back from Denmark. I am so looking forward to this.
But, talking about material things. Last time I went shopping (and I bought some gifts already), I stumbled across a new shop, where all the original perfume are. I could not get out of there, but something just stopped me for a longer time. It was Opium perfume. I adore opium, I've been looking for this scent like for ages, I always use only opium incense. I thought though that the perfume is a little bit too maleish, but overall I liked it, instead of the price. It's all my rent and unfortunatelly I cannot afford it at the moment. So I am asking for santa this year to do me a favor. haha

The other thing, which I kind of need, is a new wallet. I know, I bought one only a year ago, but I hate it already and it seems childish to me. Now I want to go back to basic black and I found one suitable in reserved. Unfortunatelly I could not find a one on the internet search, so I just took what looked most similar to the one I liked:

And one more thing what I want more than anything else on this short wishlist is a bengal kitten. I am so in love with them. I am so so so very sad that I refused to buy the one I fell in love over the internet. Now I check them regulary and sometimes I could not go to sleep and think of this cat :(

I know it's not a good time for me to own a cat, but I so want one. I have also already spent the money I got for this cat on a new tattoo machine ugh... It feels like it will take me ages  to get one :(

Always sleepy

Wow, it's been quite a long time since I wrote here. But there is not good explenation for this, I wasn't that busy, like I am during summer or any time in the year. but I was too tired, sometimes even too tired to wake up. This darkness just creeps me out. How can one live in such a cold and dark period?
I always thought about a TV show just for artists. And finally I found one. There are even few episods on youtube if you like. It is called "Work of art. The next great artist".

Autumnal sadness

Hey, what is up, you guys? I am so hopping that you don't feel as bad as people in my country at the moment. It is the darkest time in the year and we are all very unhappy and sad. One girl from my university got killed and everyone is in a huge shock. Everyone in my town is talking about this and being very sad about this, so am I. I kind of knew this girl, not too much though. She studied in a same faculty as I do at the moment, and that was very shocking, plus a person, who killed her was from my hometown. This kind of sucks, especially that this could've happen to anyone around me. But enough talking about bad stuff, even though, there is a lot of it at this time of the year.
Today me and my older sister went out for some coffee. That was cool, because most of the time we hang out in her place. I got some really delicious caramel latte, that was very cozy. Then we ended up in her place again.
Not much to tell in my life right now. I am not doing anything fancy. I only decorated my place today with some of the Christmas decorations, because I needed some joy in my life. And also it has been snowing today, but it is still too wet to stay long enough on the ground.

Master and Margarita

Recently I had a pleasure to read a book "Master and Margarita". I know, some of you have read it before, but not me unfortunatelly. I liked it from the first sentence. I could not get enough of it, until my mental state broke down a little bit and then I had to leave those few unread pages. But I am hoping to finish it this weekend. The author of this book is Russian, therefoe a whole style is my taste. I liked the realism mixed with magic, only Russians can do that trick. The plot is about a devil, who is just conveying what people have inside indeed. He is doing tricks and he is sneeky. You would never catch him. And the whole artistic socieity in Mosccow is somehow one way or another touched by this devil, who pretends to be a foreigner. He is not even pretending that much, when I thin about it. He is revealing his personallity and purposes, but people just think it's a joke. So they are all getting lost and stuff. The other half of the book tells us about Christ's crucifiction, which was quite a contrast and I liked it. Even though, I am not a Christian, I still liked this part of the book too. But, of course, there is a part about a Master and his amazing woman Margarita, who kind of gets her lover Master back with Devil's help. But this devil is so real that he is not even devilish.
Overall, I liked this book a lot, it is one of the best bookes I have ever read. And, of course, I watched a movie. But it was in Russian language with no subtitles. But the amazing thing is that the movie was made by a book and people who created a movie did not change a single thing! That is why I could understand everything :)

 I like the drawings of this book and all the theme. You will totally get them if you read this book already.

L.A. without a map

I was busy trying to catch up with undone things, like tattoo sketches and my homework today, despite of attending my lectures, of course. That is why I was watching movies most of the time, while I was drawing for an instance.
And you may know me if you are reading this blog from time to time, that I like movies with that vintage and bohemian touch. That is why one of my fav movies are like "Betty Blue", "Silence becomes you", "White Oleander", "the dreamers" and so on. That was also a reason why I did watch a movie "L.A. without a map". I liked the trailer and the idea of a Scotchman coming to LA after a girl, he falls in love with. Also, there is Julie Delpy, Johny Depp and plus few very good actors starring. However I got a little bit disappointed with it. If you don't like unexpected cuts, or illogical ones, this movie is not for you. Acting was not my style and it didn't make sense quite a bit. I wouldn't say that I hated it, but it wasn't a gem too.

I am guessing (I haven't read about this movie), that it is a low budget one indie movie. Tell me if someone of you watched it and maybe liked it, or not so much...

I am so lazy

My mom wasn't feeling too well this weekend again, so I spent most of the time pampering her. I must say, I should get shit done, but I don't know how anymore. I would love somone to help me and kick me in the ars. For an instance, I have plenty of homework, however, I am thinking that I'll get it done (if it is even happening) at the end of time. Ugh. I wish I could force myself to do things I need to be done. But oh well.
I did only one tattoo this weekend, which sucked. However, I am a lazy ass at the end of autumn, so I didn't care that much.

Darkness

There is a lot of darkness in my life now. And there is dark outside for reals too. I constantly want to sleep, I can imagine you feeling the same and I am sorry for you, like I am sorry for me too. I wish I was in a sunny place and wearing bathing suit, or at least clothes I bought today. I bought two Italian style black dresses, but I won't show you them, because cellphone pictures will never show their real beauty. My all time dream outfits always are black or red Italian style dresses.  They are not totally totally Italian, they do not have those small sleeves, but they are sure very close to being it. Also, I just call them that myself, don't actually know if this thing really exists.

And I bought this baby. At first I was hesistant. I thought that it might look tacky and I wasn't sure about it's material, however I still bought it and it is maybe one of the best purchases this month. I could wear it with something underneath it, I like that it's long and also you can have nothing underneath it if it suits you, because it still looks alright. I have this idea that I am matching it to my high wasted black pants with a zipper in a back and with my zanotti shoes with golden eagles.

Ltaely I feel super super lonely. The two past months so many people were around me to keep my company, and now none. Even when I got to my hometown for a weekend (there is always someone at home), everybody was gone even the dog and they haven't come back home yet. wow... I am so alone in this dark world haha.

Also I have been painting a little bit from my loneliness and the lack of real job...

Henna

Today I had this quite strange day. A half of it I spent dealing my business, then I attended an art library and sat there reading books for a few hours. Then I went to a art supply shop and bought some oil colors plus henna paint for henna tatttoos. I am not sure though if it is a special color for henna tattoos, but at least I did one on myself and it looks pretty well and it is still on my hand, even though I washed dishes and so on.
Then I visited my older sister. we have been there with her friend also and planned my sister's wedding. And they are cat sitting now, so basically I had things to do there haha.

 It feels like I am never gonna finish this painting. It is so big and requiers so much time, which I don't have.

Perfect Girls

Hello, my dearest ones. I hope you are all having good time despite of the weather and long nights (at least here in Lithuania we sure have very short days at the moment, when we changed our time one hour later). This day went so fast and I could not be sadder, since I had so many plans and I did not do one of them. Only that I finished a drawing I started yesterday.
Since drawing take so much time, I always watch a movie or a TV show to feel a little bit better for myself. Today I watched "Pulp Fiction", since I never saw this one. I must say, maybe I wasn't paying too much attention, but it wasn't my kind of movie. I wouldn't watch it again for reals, but acting was good, which I liked. I know that like maybe everyone saw it, so no comments from my side about this movie. And I watched another one, it is called "Perfect sisters" (2014). I watched a trailer and I liked it. I liked the plot from the first glance. Two sisters so close to each other (that attracted me, since I am very close to my sisters) and they are having troubles with their beautiful mom, who turned into an alcohol using mess. They found theirselves living with mom's boyfriend, who was a horrible person and beated the crapp out of their mother and so on. So they decides to kill their mother (those two sisters). The plot is so interesting, however the acting and a screenwrite is so awful (for me personally). I did not read any reviews, but yeah, wouldn't watch it again. There has been some great parts, but that's just all. Or maybe I am just too selective.

I was more attracted to the style of this movie maybe....

Random

How are you, my peeps? I kind of missed you. I may be addcited to this blog, even though it wouldn't bring me anything significant in life, but I still love running it.
So, I am watching this documentary while writting, and I love it. I love that those girls, who have been forced into marriage, instead of geting married, they ran away. This is what I always thought I'd do.

This girl is amazing. I am so very proud of her.

I was sitting on my ass a whole day tattoo working. I am juggling today a little bit with work and taking care of my mom. She felt sick and I am the only one, who got home for a weekend.

 This really looks better in reality, especially when it heals, however I only had my iphone, no camera, so the quallity is not the best.

It doesn't pay off

I feel a little bit stuck these days. Everything I do seems like a big load of crapp. Everything I draw, paint or even try to read - nothing seems legit. Therefore I should just do my homework already. I have so much of them, not sure, when I'll be ever free from this bullshit.
But whatever, at least I drew myself a tattoo and I am willing to get it sooner or later. But it will probably be on my back thigh. I totally want a tattoo on my lower arm, but not yet.

 And we got pics from the October photo shoot for the University we did. I wouldn't say that I am happy how I look in these pictures. At some of them I look quite fat, because I was wearing a very thick Gina Trikot sweater and leggings underneath my pants. And my face looks very strange in some pictures...

Dilema

I still have the chance to buy a cat. But I don't know anymore. I really want one, but it's expensive and also I would have to take care of something. I just don't know anymore. Please, someone, help me to decide, because I am totally on my own and making decisions is not my strongest muscle in the body haha.
I did not have much time lately, only maybe because it's dark outside again and in my life too obviously. But I started spending more time with one of my course mates, after the test yesterday, we went out for some delicious sandwiches and had a nice long walk. I love Klaipeda in the night. And today I was renewing one tattoo. I am so boring you guys. I really want to write a book review, but I am not finished with it yet. ugh. To buy a cat, or not?

 I took a picture of my long hair. I am growing them for 5 years now (of course I am trimming them from time to time)

Look how cute he is. He is amazingly lovely. I want to kiss him from head to toes.

Don't feel like doing something weekend

This weekend I felt a little bit too tired and rather exhausted, therefore I took a weekend off. I did only one very small tattoo which does not count and that is all. However I spent some good quallity time with my family. We had a little party back home. Unfortunately I did not celebrate Halloween, even though I really wanted, but I did not feel in the mood for that. Dressing up like someone else, when you don't know yourself that well did not feel like a good idea.
I feel so tired after that much of social time with my whole family and more this weekend, therefore it feels so nice getting back to my apartment and being all by myself. Unfortunately I have this test tomorrow and I must study...