Almost...

Yesterday I went to see my little sister. We had some grat time and backed potatos with milk. That was cool. Also, she has a cat as you know. She is always trying to convince me that I should get one. But I am very selective. However we came acroos an amazing cat, it's Bengal cat. We contacted the owner and she was willing to sell me the male cat for me this Saturday. Then I come home and I read about those cats more, apparently they are very active and you cannot leave them alone for too long, that was exactly what I had to do considering that my work is so unpredictable. Then again, some of them can get a little bit too active or even agressive at a times. Since they are half wild, and they are very talkative. I had to reject the offer today, because no one will want to cat sit for me if it will behave like this. They are a lot like dogs. But now I want this cat again and even more I wanted it yesterday, I don't know what to do. I know I shouldn't get one, since it's a responsibillity, also those Bengal cats are quite expensive and also their care is expensive too. But I want one so much now :(

 He is so pretty. I want it soooooo very much. And the worst thing is to know that you can afford one.

 I tried to make a very short photoshoot which took me twenty minutes. But it's not the same to shoot again for me. It's been a while and I do not know how to do this anymore :(

Today's tattoo I've done...

Crown tat

I think I should somehow fix my computer. My ad block is not working at all and I have so many problems aside. Waiting until my boyfriend will get back from Denmark and fix it totally. Because it is getting hard to work with it.
So, this week I have no lectures!!! yeeey!!! But it will pass so soon I won't be able to enjoy it. I have so many things to do, I do not remember myself not working. Even like now, I am sitting here, doing sketches and cannot get to the book I took from library today. I am so hooked. This book is amazing and I will reveal about it later, because I am willing to write a review about it.
And here is  a crown tattoo I did today:

Maybe, because I am a leo, but I love crowns. I just adore them. I love doing them, I love drawing them, I love watching them. I would even love having one on myself someday. 

David Copperfield

A month ago I went to a library as usual and unexpectedly I got this book in my hands. The writer, as you know, is Charles Dickens. I had a pleasure reading one or two of his books in the past and I was happy, when I started the mentioned one.
The book was easy going. English writers are way easier than Russian writers. The latter are quite heavy and depressing, however English ones are more delightful and just a little bit mystic (which I like, of course).
The book was long, about 800 page. It was about a man, starting as a boy and his life. I have this idea (and I heard it in the documentary I watched about Dickens), that this book is a lot like his life. His misfortune, while he was a child, when his father was arrested for his dues and he had to work disgusting jobs to pay his bills (while being a child). Well, there was quite a bit of that. And that his wife in real life died young (first one), which also happened on this book. Eventually you have to read it yourself, I am not sure if I can reveal everything here.

I also think that a writer or a painter cannot make an artwork without putting something from themselves. Hence that just could be it about this book, or maybe as some people suggest, it's autobiographical...

Social life

Yesterday was a very tiring social day for me. At first I met with my sister and my friend. Me and my sis have this mutual friend and we kind of went out a little bit. I guess we even purchased some stuff for that matter and then we headed down to my sister's apartment. We had some nice time there chatting and drinking tea. But It was veeery cold outside, indeed. This wind those few past days is unbearable. It's cold and very icy. Anyways I went home quite late at the evening and then I got home I though to myself - "oh, thank God I do not need to go anywhere else today, because the weather is totally bitchin'". And at the same moment I get this call from my course mate and maybe she is my new friend a little bit. She asks me if I wanna stay for a whole night in her friend's apartment and make desserts. I am like - "shit, but fine". And we spent a very nice night there.

This baby is one of the most delicious things I have ever eaten. Even though it's been three weeks I am trying to cut on sugar, I could not resist this baby.

We talked for a half of night and at 6 in a morning we went to bed. It has been a quite nice and calm evening,

I bought this bag from zara, which was very cheap, It was on half price and I could not resist. I also bought those earrings from H and M. I kind of wanted them for a while, but I did not have enough courage to buy them and now I found an excuse. It's my sister's upcoming wedding on February 14th. I've decided what style is gonna be my whole outfit and I am gonna wear these earrings next to my french twist. jeeeej. I also bought these black candles, which I love. 

Weekend

This weekend was long and it sucked. I did a bunch of tattoos, but They are simple. And most of the drawings I did sucked too.
I started to think - will I ever be good enough? I mean, that most of the artists do not feel any fulfillment during their lives at all. And I am gonna be one of them, that scares the shit out of me.

One good thing happened  this weekend is that I created this sketch and one of my friends took it right away

Another good thing was that our sacred Thai amulets arrived at last...The smaller is mine.

Shopping

Yesterday me and my friend went out. And we accidentally ended up shopping. We don't have much money, but we spent it all. We spent 5 hours walking around the shops. I was so very tired. It's my first time shopping for so long this year I guess haha. And we bought bunch of stuff. Like I needed gloves, but I ended up buying a very expensive scarf from zara. It's amazing.
I could not take a good picture of it, so basically it was a lot like this one:

But instead of those green squares there are some kind of ornaments and the whole scarf is dark blue and it's shape is a big square too, which you must fold and make a triangle. Anyways, I adore it now. It is so cosy and very warm indeed. You can also wear it on your shoulders during summer nights.

I bought this skirt too. I very much love it and it costed only like 5 euros or even less. It fits me perfectly.I also bought a bunch of panties and gloves from H and M for a very reasonable price. Only they are white, which is not cool at all.

And today I also did a tattoo :) 

Early bird

It is raining cats and dogs now and it feels so cosy being in my apartment all alone and drinking tea, I also can still smell the oranges and I love  it so much.
This morning I had to wake up very early to go to the tattoo shop and bring my sketches to the artist, who asked me to do them. I hate waking up so early, when it's dark outside, but it also kind of feels cosy too.
Recently I've been busy, but I avoid making contacts now and being friendly. I figured since I work so much, I shouldn't spend much time with my friends. Even though, I already owe my friend Justina a visit to Kaunas, and I also owe my friend Ieva a visit to her place or even a sleepover, since she slept like 3 times at my place already and I haven't.
I have one small tattoo today, a tone of sketches, plus to show my presentation and if I'll get lucky - to hit the gym. I miss exercising so much :(

Autumnal weekend

Here it is - weekend again. 

Even though, my life is not perfect now, I am still enjoying living it. I enjoy autumn and today, after doing two tattoos, I ended up walking alone around my hometown. I especially love forests here. They are so spacious and very clear. I invited my friend to join me during this walk, but unfortunately it started raining and I had to get back home. But I felt so blessed and deep.

I deeply think that, even if your current situation is not perfect, you can live a perfect life inside of you and you don't need anyone to make you happy, only you yourself. 

Bullshit time

So, I finally allow myself to talk about what happened yesterday. A week ago or so I was invited for a job interview at one of the best tattoo shops in Lithuania. Or maybe even the best. So I was a little bit nervous naturally. I had to make a portfolio of my drawings, therefore I drew like crazy, day and not night :D I sleep at nights. And of course the tattoo portfolio + tattoo machines. So, I went. And apparently I am not the only one who wants to get this place. But at least the main tattoo artist said that I am one of the most experienced tattoo artist. But we will have to fight for this position and it felt awful to hear that. I thought that I am not gonna do this, since I do not like competition and I am really bad at this. But When I went home, the artist wrote me a message with more homework for me, then I thought I'll try it. It is quite interesting. Even though, I really have more stuff to do (like my master's degree :D) but.... whatever. I do not have a lot of tattoos now, because of the season.
Forget about this. I fixed the problem with the machine also, so now it's good I guess.
Also yesterday I was invited to participate in a photoshoot. But not a simple one, it is gonna be a photoshoot of our university. And if it is gonna look well, we are gonna be on booklets. This is kind of cool for me personally. At least they said that they needed pretty people and they consider me pretty, wow :D haha. I don't :(
So yesterday after the lectures, which ended up at 8 p.m. my course mate invited me to get some coffee with her friends. And we had a blast in a bohemian atmosphere. It felt great. Laughter and smiles. Good time ;)

Not gonna finish this, so posting

A disaster

Hey. So basically today I had to get my new tattoo machine I was waiting for a whole month. It was done by the same master/artist, who did my previous machine. He makes them very well indeed. So I ordered a liner, since I have a shader. I did order it with a Frida Kahlo portrait on it's coils. And tomorrow I need it. However, I get this beautiful machine. It is so small and shit and I notice that something's not right with a screw. Apparently it's very round and I cannot put a rubber on it. It sucks so much, since I was waiting a whole month to get it and it is soooo pretty. And now I am done talking about this, cause you cannot help me anyway.
So yeah. That is my big problem now.

I've never seen you act so shallow

I am not sure how I will survive this week, especially these few days in a future. I am kind of stressed a little bit and very not confident about myself. Also, it's so boring here in my hometown, but I have to stay here for a weekend. Even though, I do not have much tattoos, but I still got few.
Anyways, I am working non stop, since I will need those drawings for Tuesday, so wish me luck.

A whole day out

My life changed a quite bit from the last time I updated here. But I don't know if it will bring me any joy or maybe something bad. But at least I feel happy now and since I do not want anyone to take it away from me (also I am not sure if I want to explain things if I won't go trough this), so I am not sharing this for now. Who knows, maybe tomorrow I'll say what was the big mysterious thing. But today I just can't.
Since, today was unbearable for me to stay home and work, I ended up meeting with my friend Ieva. We took a walk around the shops (it's been a while I was shopping with girls), when we took a walk to a house of artists, where she has a place, and the coffee. And of course, I had to meet with my sister, who was also shopping, and I wanted to share with her big news. So basically that was my day. I did not have any lectures today (But I would've love to go, to not stay alone at home). I love this golden autumn which appears to be knocking on the door by the way.

And I could not resist buying this clutch bag. It was on sale. I hopping to wear this on my sister's wedding haha. she is so gonna kill me.