Movie time

Today I watched a movie "Son in law". At first I was almost sure that it is gonna be a bullshit movie. I turned it on as a background while I was drawing. However I kind of liked it. I liked that there was a setting of a country side and a girl went to study to California from this background, which was quite cool. Cause you know, in California people are different.I liked the idea of a girl changing her style and that free spirit, which I am looking for almost in all movies. Of course, you have to understand that this movies was made in 90's and it's way different from all you get now. But I enjoyed it. It was cosy :)

I do not give a lot of opportunities to become more sophisticated, My apologies.

My drawing is bad. At least I wasn't looking at any references

My stupid weekend

I am feeling like I am very dumb at the moment. I am trying to cheer my family up, however, I myself am feeling like shit honestly. My mind is not that sharp anymore, if it ever was. I am without any talent whatsoever and I don't have a discipline anymore.
This weekend I only did like  tattoos and two of them were surprisingly small. I am not pushing any limits and that's enough.
This weekend, as I mentioned before, I attended my mother's in law birthday. She is amazing and somehow I felt so warm hugging her and spending some precious time next to her. Of course, somehow, I ended up being the youngest one there. But I enjoyed smart conversations without any swear words whatsoever.

My sister's mother's in law cat is thaaaat pretty that I want to lick it from head to toe. I wish I could let myself to have one at home...

Sims 4

So yeah. As I said I have visited my friend in her new place and I must say, I liked it a lot. Not too much, in a healthy amount. She invited me to live with her, but yet again, I love living alone and I am kinda enjoying my loneliness. Except that she lives in a center of the city and I am somewhere in a corner, which sucks. However, I will stay at her place as much as it's possible. I guess...
Then I visited my sister. We drank wine and played sims 4.
haha. and I created Paul. The character I created is sooo similar to Paul. he even has that sort of blouse and shorts haha. Not mentioning the beard haha.

But I must say that sims 4 has so many defects. I still love sims2 the most.

So basically, my mother in law invited me to her birthday tomorrow. Oh, I am so nervous. OMG. Since I am alone, without my boyfriend. haha. At least I've got a gift...

Pursuit of happiness

Recently I have a blessing to come across the movie "Pursuit of happiness". I learned about it only from the interview and that was strange. But who told you that strange things aren't good things? So I watched it. And I liked it. It is a real story, which has to inspire people. About a guy, who is very poor. His wife leaves him and his son. So he is struggling through life. At some point he almost became a homeless, only because he agreed to become and intern, who does not get money for his internship. Of course the story ended up greatly, that is because it was written. Anyways, I liked the movie, I even cried at few scenes, that's an indicator - it's good haha. I also liked Will Smith.

Today I also have to visit my friend at her new apartment (If my health will let me) and my sister too. This weekend I only have few tats, that scares me out. This is a lesson to not rely on anything in this world.

yesterday I went out to buy some art supplies and a present for my mother on law, since her Birthday is tomorrow. So I totally tried them on last night on this drawing above. 

Autumn is coming

My computer is getting slower and slower each and every day. Since my boyfriend is in Denmark now and I don't have anyone to fix it, it is getting worst. Therefore there is less blogging.
However time flies so quickly and it scares the shit out of me. On Saturday it is gonna be 3 weeks my love and I haven't seen each other face to face in reality. I must say I missed him a lot, but I have so many things to do, which is cool, because I do not have enough time to think about it. But Yesterday I took one free day off everything. Because it's autumn already and I feel that work and weather have drained me out. Unfortunately today I feel worst than yesterday, but I have thinks to do. Agh. My lectures are waiting for me. Also, I've been tattooing a little bit today :) Oh gosh, I love this job. I wish I could do it every single day for the rest of my life.

Tattoo weekend

Hello. I've been soo busy, omg. However I am thankful for that, since I am being alone and that feels amazing to do what I love.
Today I started my first ever sleeve from scratch. We did lines today. The guy, whom I tattooed was so cute and he really did not bitch about the pain. It is gonna be pure pleasure to tattoo him. Also with my design. I am hopping he will love the outcome and me too.

Here is my this weekend's work. However, I will not post the lines from the sleeve yet. Too scared.

Winter shoes

Hello, my lovely peeps.
Last week I was full of energy, I did use every single minute of the day, but this week is totally different. I am feeling so lazy, omg. This  week I did only few tattoos, however I spent a lot of time with my friend Ieva. I am not sure how would I live without her, she is amazing. She feeds me, lets me feel like I am needed and so on.
I've been searching for the shoes to wear on a cold Lithuanian winter. I am  not a shoe maniac, I am also not in a mood to walk around the shops. But I ended up in one of them and I already found winter boots. It's "rieker" shoes,which cost more than my rent and I bought a wrong size, they are slightly too big for me, however it's good for the winter because of thick socks. In general I like them.

Black liquid

Those few past days were almost the worst ones. And my mom eventually is in the hospital, now she is safe (for few days at  least) and I can calm myself down. Then the tattoos, everything is falling apart, but I feel like it's a new beginning of something. Not sure though if of something good or bad. I feel like maybe it will be time to stop tattooing. But I will continue doing it, until I am getting paid. I realized today maybe it's not my thing, which is sad. No tattoo shop needs me whatsoever and I am bad at it. I always wanted to pursue something connected to fashion.

Opportunities

So basically my boyfriend haven't been working for a full week, he always works great, therefore he got noticed quite fast and have been offered to try a managers position. That is quick and quite great, except a fact, that he would have to stay way longer in Denmark. So he is considering now. I tried to persuade him to take a job, since here in Lithuania after new years will change our national currency, from LTL to euro and our minimum wage will be around 300 euros. It sounds rather funny. Especially, when he could get there waaay more. However I will miss him so much if he will take a job. But you have to do what's the best for you.
Today I did not have any lectures and I did not feel like working. So I painted all day long. But I don't like the results yet, so no pics yet.

Dark life, dark times....

It is really kind of a dark time in my life. But I cannot be more happy that I hold on so well at the moment. Since I suppose I am an artist and those are very delicate flowers in the world, I am more sensitive than most of the people I know. But it is way better than when I was a teen.
I have some troubles with my parents, then I am totally alone most of the time during the day. Thankfully I have few friends whom I visit from time to time, one of them even invited me to live with her, but I am better off alone I guess. Since I don't actually know when Paul will be back, also I would have to pay for two apartments, because when Paul after all gets back, we will still have to live somewhere and lease in this town is incredibly high, also there are just few apartments around left. And then again my tattoos. I am so sad that I do not have a place in a salon, that is so frustrating. At some point I am willing to give up at a times. And this is one of them. My drawings look shitty, plus I tried painting for two days in a row, it is a disaster.
Sorry for negative post, but as you know I have no one to complain to at the moment.

This drawing reminds me of autumn so much

Wedding photos

Hello, everyone. I am so sorry for the lack of updates, however I have been busy, also quite sad at a times, so I did not want to post any negative stuff going on in my life right now. It's nothing special, just missing my love and being alone most of the time is a huge test. But I am feeling and doing surprisingly well. Only sleeping is quite difficult, especially falling asleep. Since I am constantly scared of darkness and unpredictable noises, it's not that easy. But you have to give me some credit, it's the first time I am for real living all alone by myself. All my life I lived with my big family, then only with my sisters, while I was studying, then instantly with my boyfriend, so... But I am doing fine, regarding work. I work almost constantly, that is why I do not feel that sad, which is cool. My studies started and they are more boring than ever. But I have like a year left, so basically that would be dumb to leave it.
I liked that my sister got her wedding photos at last. However I haven't certainly liked them too much. At least the pics of me. Am I that ugly? And I am not sure about some of their quality. But I totally respect the photographer, we had such a nice chat and it was a really nice guy.

Sad day Nr. 1

So, he is off today. I could not feel more sad or frustrated at this moment, however, this could get worst, when I'll be totally alone on my own this Monday. I hate goodbyes and I hate that I had to say it to one of my most beloved people on this Earth. But life is life and he could not get a proper job here in Lithuania for a while. Which is sad.
Today I've been a little bit busy, that is why I haven't got a lot of time for thinking. I did only one tattoo though. But I spent some precious time with one my friends, plus my sister and her boyfriend. I also picked up a piercing I've been waiting for so long. It's my septum piercing. I pierced it a month ago myself, but I did not tell anyone until I got my golden piercing I ordered on etsy. I loooove it :)

I also bought quite a few sweaters today I am happy about. It's a mickey mouse sweater I am wearing in this pic, it's so warm... mmmm...

Stuck

It's no fun at all anymore. My boyfriend is leaving tomorrow and I am gonna be living alone for god knows how long. It's not living alone, it's also missing this particular person. Everything seems so sad and even people are reacting to me differently. However I believe we are gonna spend this last day very productive and plus being very close to each other... Wish us luck.
My art is also very stuck, I have almost no more clients and my drawings seem to not moving anywhere. Oh well.

Last night we watched "wife Swap" and I did this drawing. But the TV show was so funny, omg :D especially a swap between white trash and a family, which tries to live positive and healthy life.

No talent

I've been working a little bit more recently, however, I cannot get myself into proper things... I feel hopeless and with no talent whatsoever. Everything what I draw or tattoo looks bad to me... Oh well, I guess it's my life now. Also my studies started, but today I am not going to the lectures. My boyfriend is most likely going to work in Denmark on Saturday, therefore I decided to stay with him as much a possible.