Hello World

It's almost more than a half of the week I am not wearing my daly make up. I feel like a ghost, I don't want to get out and I don't feel any urge too. Even though I wear only mascara daily, but I look terrible.

But my skin is getting better. It's so good not to have chocolate at home. Hello, World. But next week I won't be able to avoid reallity. 

Time goes by

I have a really small amount of readers recently and I cannot complain, it gives me freedom to write here real bullshits and do not concern if anybody will like it (don't concern about it anyway), it just gives me more freedom to write whenever I want and what I want.
So, basically I have one week to live with the dental braces. This is actually a strange feeling. You get used to everything, to the pain in the mornings, pain after the visits and ugly smile. Now it's almost over and I am not sad and not happy either. Maybe because I saw a video, where a 2014 world war was predicted. One thing is what I hate the most, since I was a kid, and was afraid of that too very much, is war. I'd rather die. There is nothing worst than war in my imagination and anything and anyone who talks or predicts it is making me sick. So, today I wish I had some of my childish books to read, even though I have to go outside and face this ugly world (in some cases), to sit and listen about managment and stuff, to paint those big paintings and be scared all the time.
But yesterday was nice, we decided to meet up with the half of the gang in one pizza place, where my brother in law (?) works and we got the biggest pizza's for totally free. He even made them as we wanted, I wanted my pizza to be half of margarita and half with mushrooms. That was damn tasty.
Here it is, one more boring and long post.

These are two stupid, unfinished and unprofessional drawings I did during last days. The second one is inspired by Teya Salat, a russian tattoo model, who has a tattoo all over her neck. Looks really amazing and interesting.

Sometimes I wish I had an exclusive tattoo, I know it would affect my life in some ways. But this girl looks not like lots of people do and she is brave too. Well, I never really liked neck tattoos a lot, but her design looks really good. 

Braces

So, today I finally will know the answer if denists are taking off my braces in one week. If I would say I am not a little bit nervious I would be lieing. I don't know if it is proper for me to share these photos of my teeth, when I first got my braces and now, but if it will trigger you in some way, you let me know.

That was first day wearing braces. Painful indeed.

And this is my last week I hope :) And somehow my eye looks very blue in this pic

Simon Hennessey

I am not super into photorealists, but I do adore realism actually. These two types of art are a little bit different, I prefer Russian academism and realism, especially in the XX or XIX eras. But I found a really amazing artist Simon Hennessey. He works on big sizes mostly. This is inspiring to me and necessary considering that today I finally started one of my four big canvases. Congratulations to me.

I like this one a lot.

P.S. If you haven't seen a movie "Doom generation" I would not recommend it. At first I really thought it will be something my style, but the plot is unaccountable. And if you have seen it, please, tell me where is the meaning? That there is no meaning?

Weekend

I am a little bit broke these days. In the end of the winter there are only very few tattoos and it makes me sad. This weekend I had two tattoos to do, but none of them I did, because it was hard to plan it anyway, had to postpone it to next weekend. But I got my shoes at last and I liked them a lot. They are amazing, they fit perfectly and look nice too. The quallity will be poor, but you can see a little bit :)

I did not do my shoe lace as you can see, but they still look amazig. This is what I've been waiting for.
Also, yesterday we had a really nice party into the bath-house. It belongs to my aunt and we were invited to had a try. I did not drink any alcohol though and I spent some amazing time. I also tried to clean my whole body, drinking a lot of water and going a lot to the steam and heat.

Some quite crappy pictures. I don't even know why I am posting them here anyway. 

There were quite a lot of people, maybe that's why it was cosy and funny.

Natalie Shau

I found an inspiring artist. Even though all my life I disliked all the fantasy drawing, today I found someone, who even inspired me. I like her digital paintings and what not....
Take a look by yourself:

She even drew an album for Kerli. I used to love Kerli, when I was 18.

I like this one a lot :)

And this one. 

Natural living

Apparently I use a lot of things that Cleopatra used to. Even clay. I spent few hours readings beauty tips (natural) most of them were from the time when Cleo lived. She really used a lot of ingredients to look nice and young. I don't actually know why I am so into the healthy eating, exercising and natural beauty products, but I am embracing myself. And maybe it is because I am a leo, who knows?
So, my some future plans are to get a juicer or something similar, to make natural coctails, to start exercising very much, to start eating healthier food, maybe even find a place where I could buy more natural products and to buy some new oils and herbs, because that's right fellas it's time for me to make a homemade creme. I  am not sure to use beewax or just wax though? Hm... Tricky

The composition was too adorable. Well, this is what I use for my hair: eggs and honey I am using generally, sometimes I add clay and olive oil into my potion :)

Stupid long post

My eyes are in pain and I am not getting warm today. This lack of vitamines always confuses me at the end of the winter. Also, this day is terribly cold, I don't remember myself being so cold yet and it is frustratring, more than anything considering that I really need some vitamines. But I highly doubt that buying fruits from supermarkets in this seasson would do any good for me.
Also while I was getting back from uni first time I saw that I live near the gym. We talked about that with my bf, that he won't find any time to go to the gym, his working hours are very long and quite stupid, it takes mostly all day long, but now when I saw we have one gym next to our home also next to his job, because he works near, maybe after I'll get rid of my braces and he will have his nose straightened in the next month, we could both gore there and sweat all the shit out. I need it as much as I need breathing. These days totally suck, but I have my consolation - books. I always combine my books very carefully. I have to say, if I have some good books to read, that means I will survive the winter. Also I am always trying my best with chosing books and this time I impressed myself, I have chosen books from almost every branch I am interested now the most.

One book is not here, it's fiction. And one book about healthy eating and living is on the top. Another one next to the previous one is about Yoga. two others about art, architecture and glory. This post is stupid. haha

Who cares?

I am not in the best mood today. It's one of these days, when I don't know what I will do in my future and a thought of a random exhausting job is freaking me out. I hate those days. Also I was making a nice dinner and my mother called, she spread boring and very negative stuff around me. After all exhausting day, when I super hate people, my boyfriend wrote me that he dose not know if he could make it on time, because it's some kind of inventory at his job. So instead of cleaning rooms, like I wanted to, now I am sitting on the pc and updating my blog. Oh who cares anyway? I wish some of you could share a good experience of finding amazing job...

This morning, when I felt better

Monday

I am little bit tired of the tattooing and I am happy this week I have only weekend going on. Today I realised that I really have to start working on my final project, thereforre we got off the market with a huge canvas and 3 more are waiting to be bought. At first I disliked even the thought that I will have to work so much, after that I started enjoying this thought and at the end of the day I am a bit freaking out because of the size of it and I will have 4 of them to paint. I even did not planned a whole thing yet. I might put all my effort in it though... I like the idea of sleepless nights.
Today I also tattooed my boyfriend. We considered to do a world map, but the old one. Apparently we could not do that and in reallity it looked better like this:

Also I found my one more passion in life and now I am regreting a little bit I did not find it 4 years ago. It's nutrition and healthy living. I was a lot into it, but now I even started reading some books about that and I even enjoy it so much.... I am thinking of taking some deeper studies into this actually.

Ah..

This morning started with a pain. Yesterday I tattooed almost a whole day. Since morning till 10 p.m. Now my shoulder is aching.  But these are some results we achieved :)

This is a cover-up we did last night.

And some woolfs 

tattoo design

I finally designed a tattoo for tomorrow. I love this job. I am so not in the mood to sleep, but I've got to get up early. And I hope deep down my heart that the person, who ordered this tattoo, will be satisfied and we will rock on. If no, that means I have only one tattoo to do for tomorrow. I hope you enjoy that I post a lot these days, if no, I don't care anyways.

I cannot help myself and do not look more creapy as I already am, but I cannot be more than happy, when someone puts my crappy art on tumblr. That tickled my heart a little bit indeed. 

Out of inspiration

This time in my life I feel a little bit out of talent (I even don't have one), but how to name that thing which is related to art? My tattoos look horrible to me, even though tomorrow I have two more, I am not even talking about my drawing or painting (which is disaster). I even ruined few paintings because of my emotional state. How to release myself? I don't know.

Maybe today I loved the N letter more than anything I did this week. It's simple, even and in a really nice area.

Valentine's day?

Since I really dislike Valentine's day, everybody knows, that I don't care about the gifts and all the hearts and love. I think that this day is totally made up and you have to love each other every single day. But yesterday was nice, I got flowers from my love (even though I get them too often) and we made delicious dinner with mushrooms...mmm... And a very romantic evening occured even if I didn't really planned anything special.
So, today I have 3 tattoos. I hope I will be busy, because the end of the winter will suck me in.

To buy or not to buy?

I hate one thing - when I choose some kind of bag, I can't find it on the internet. Same thing with shoes and other stuff. I am so not popular haha. Anyways, yesterday was a great day, I also got out at last after a long break, haven't been shopping for ages now, because of that huge plan I am saving up to. We bought some really nice matching cups and I've got real white clay for my face skin and hair. I tried it last night, totally worth the price I payed. Ok, it was a gift from my bf for a Valentine's day, but we don't split money...
So, to shorten the long story, I found one more affordable bag in zara, it is nice too. Some of them are just too big or too small, but the one I was willing to buy was peretc for me. But I hesitated and I did not buy it haha. I will think it through till Monday maybe.
So many mistakes in this post. Oh.

This is just a reference, because it is not the bag I chose. This one is very similar though.
P.S. I had a dream this night that I was dead. Interesting feeling.

Cougar town

As I probably mentioned before I started watching a quite new Tv show "Cougar town". At first I did not enjoy watchig it as I expected, but after all it turned out to be a really good tv show. It is about a woman, who is divorced and has a kid. It takes place in Florida. I like it because it's cosy and it feels nice watching it. Maybe I do it too much recently. I liked the most, when the whole group of her firiends formed, even of those who hate each other. So anyway, it is nice watching it, I even cried few times, but no one needs to know that. Also I am worst at writing reviews. Sorry, fellas.

You can watch the trailer above. Now I need to go to the managment lecture. I know, right? :D

Tattoo shop

So, the tattoo shop in which I am dieing to work is now searching for a new tattoo artist with an experience. This tattoo shop is located in the city I am studying in, also the head master is one of the best in Lithuania. And I can asure you I won't get this job, I've seen one guy, who applied and his works are way better than my, also, he has better experience, but I still sent them my portfolio and very short and quite uninformed letter. I thought that they won't judge me if I try. I am so dieing to work there, I was wanting this now for a whole year, it was my destination, when I started tattooing at first. How I wish I could get that place, I would work very hard, if I had a chance to work there :(
Meanwhile I did few tattoos. Also today wasn't the best day either, like a day before. I never thought I would feel that way after partying hard. I am getting old.

This tattoo took me 20 minutes and I was impressed how easy it felt tattooing this guy :)

Bodysuit

I found this amazing bodysuit, which I would LOOOOOVE to buy. Since from time to time I post a little wish on my blog, this will be one of them. I found it on the Black Milk this shop seems to have lots of things, which I would love to have. I will consider a possibility to buy something maybe in spring from this shop...

Party

Omg, the party yesterday was so incredibly cool and so on. It was very cool, cosy and stuff. There was one huge problem - I ended up very very drunk. I was the only one so drunk and good to everyone. I remember people asking me not to leave, but I had no choice. Then in the bus I had to take off through the front door, where people only get in and almost puked on the street. And remember a guy trying to help us and me asking this stranger to help me to vomit :D anyway, we got home somehow and I felt terrible as I never felt. This morning I have this huge hangover, very huge. And I remember every single detail of the party, which sucks :D I really hoped I won't. Anyway, I won't share lots of photos, because I did not have time to take pictures while partying. Well, at least I will have something to remember. But this morning feels like a huge mistake. Oh..... I am so happy I don't have any lectures today.

There were more people after we took these photos, but then it was too late for me to use the camera and if even when I used it, pictures are lame and blurry. Anyway, so here we all look very good :D

Small tattoos

Today I had these weird tattoos, wich take you 15 minutes. So basically, I was working for about a half an our and the other time of the day I was cleaning my kit and chatting with mates. Nothing really special, but tomorrow there is a party. I want to party a little bit, because this winter was cold and I did not have a chance to dress nice.

Both of them look really meaningful and nice.

Friday Night

It is quite ridicilous, when people are trying to show how amazing they're gonna spend their Friday night on social network sites and maybe I do it to, I don't know. But I basically spend my fridays all alone by myself, or with family, not even with my bf, because he has his lectures till 9 p.m. I am not gonna lie, this friday is not the best, also I am gonna spend it alone, watching maybe new tv show "Cougar" with Courtney Cox, or "Harry Potter". Maybe I will draw one sketch for tomorrow's tattoo and read a damn book. And I will go to sleep like an old lady, maybe at 11 p.m. I would love to, because I have this little insomnia, wich I got from my father with genes and I could not fall asleep the previous night, a disaster, when you have to wake up quite early, to catch a bus in a cold winter morning and shit. Man, I am sleepy.
Have a lovely Friday, folks

First try

I am quite tired and I fucked a little bit with layers and did not even tried the background yet. ahhh

Drawing tablet

This morning felt like Christmas. My bf got back from his small short and unpayed job to his new job and he brought me my drawing tablet, of which I was waiting the most from all things I ordered, except tattoo kit maybe. He got off and I cannot install drivers, because my CD rom (?) is pissing me off, it seems like it will crash the CD and I am very sad that I now have to wait till my bf will organise all the papers in his new job and will get back hear and do something about that CD. Anyway, I was quite happy and I will let you know how it will end up, also if it will end up good you might even see some drawings of mine soon.

I wanted a smaller tablet, because I am one of those people, who travel from place to place with half of my stuff. Also, yesterday was 3 years while we are together. With some little breaks :D

Lenoreiii

This girl was called Lenoreiii some years ago on Vampirefreaks.com, maybe a lot of years ago. She used to be a huge inspiration to me, also she left a big inpact on my looks too. She had lots of really thoughtful tattoos and wore wonderful make-up. I wish I could see how she looks now, I missed watching her on VF. Also, she was an owner of the writing cult. She had tattoos all over her legs, I think it was a poem or something. Why I miss a person, who I never met in person? I must be crazy :)

Windy

Sup, brothers and sisters? Are you constantly craving for better weather like I do recently? If so, we could be friends. It is frustrating walking with same ugly shoes with thick wool socks, with big coat and a cap or a hood everytime you go out, because it's not even cold, it's windy too.
Today I was quite busy, I even visited my little sister. One more big party is waiting in my oldest sister's new apartment, waiting waiting. And my bf at last got a better job, but his nose operation is in a month. I hope he won't get fired because of that....
Anyway, so I don't really have anything to tell you, guys. It's so cold outside that you'd rather stay at home and meditate or read books, if you don't have anywhere to go.

I forced myself not to braid my hair today and choose other casual hairstyle, which I tried quite long time ago.

Sticky Buddy

This is the dumbest thing I've seen in a long time, but I like it :D

This one is even funier :D

Buddha's Head

Today is a lonely day and might be a day only for working or something similar.  Yesterday was nice though, we got back to our place, bought some new stuff, which we barely afforded and cleaned a mess, which left after my sister, had delicious dinner and all evening watched "Mad about you". It felt like I am home again and I don't want to be anywhere else anymore. Especially those few very dark and misty days.

I am not very good with words recently, therefore I did not post here. Anyway, I want to show you our newest bargain, which I adore. I wake up now in the morning and somehow it's a very first thing I see.

My little dream came true. I wanted to order a whole statue on amazon, but I found a head in Lithuania, so I decided that it will be way cheaper, faster and still, I don't know what will happen tomrrow, If I would not be able to take it with me into the new place, that wouldn't be so painful to leave it.
Marilyn Manson is on today and I am feeling like I am 17 again...

Typical Sunday

I feel like I have to wake my blog up, but it feels so demanding and obligating. Those days are so dark and misty, I'd rather stay at home and paint, but it's also not always a good plan. Even though the weather today was absolutely amazing, we even passed funeral while we were visiting a graveyard and I felt something strange inside it's just... maybe that I love my family a lot and my fiance is the closest person to me in this world, the only one I ever loved and I hope it will stay like this forever, like in a fairytale or something. But enough about all this sentamental stuff.
Today I managed to tattoo one person, the tattoo took me half an hour, so it's like a real Sunday, when you're not doing anything. But tomorrow I am heading back to Klaipeda (the city where I am studying) we have to tidy up our place, because my sister moved out with her boyfriend, now it's again just two of us. I am planning of painting as more as I can while I am staying alone for a couple of days... I hope I'll suceed.

The girl chose her own hand written font and also her mother language I am kinda respecting her a lot about her descision. And I liked the words a lot. They say "Screw worthless thoughts, let there be life" or something like that, it's always difficult to translate something right.

Instagram mess

Since today is a really boring and lazy day I am sharing some instagram photos with you considering that it's been a long time I did this. So, this is my drawing haha

I baked apple pie the previous week and the three of us spent an evening watching "mad about you"

My new blouse from "house". Very confy and very cheap too.

Our dog spends days sleeping like that during winter. This is hilarious

Acrylic colors I got from friend as a gift

Pink Floyd record. Feeling nice.

Started Fitzgerald's book, not so impressed as I was about "paint it black"... Feeling sad about that, because I read that he wrote this novel during his holidays in Rivjera (?) in Chanel's villa. You know that Coco Chanel is my muse.